Nothing Hurts More Than Starting to Heal

Nothing Hurts More Than Starting to Heal

July 16, 2026 · 19 min

About this episode

Maggie Feil shares her personal journey of grief and healing after losing her mother, reflecting on the complexities of moving forward while carrying the memory of a loved one.

It'll be four years this week since I lost my mom. For a long time, I thought surviving was the hardest part. Just making it through the next hour, the next day, the next week. But nobody prepared me for what came after. The first time I laughed without feeling guilty. The moments where life slowly started asking me to participate again. Because healing isn't always what we think it will be. Sometimes it feels like betrayal. Sometimes it feels like leaving the person you love behind. In this episode, I'm sharing the most honest conversation I've had about grief, what the last four years have really looked like, turning 40 without my mom, and the unexpected lessons I've learned about choosing to keep living. If you've ever lost someone you love, if you're carrying heartbreak, or if you're trying to find your way back after life changed forever, I hope you'll borrow my belief until you find your own. Maybe healing isn't about letting go. Maybe it's finally learning how to carry them with you.

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