When it Costs the Most (John 19:17-42)

About this episode

This episode explores the costly responses of those who remained with Jesus during his crucifixion, focusing on the character of Nicodemus and the implications of following Jesus in difficult times.

Most people show up for Jesus when it's safe. Nicodemus had been quietly watching for the entire Gospel of John, showing up at night, speaking carefully, covering his tracks. But something about the cross changed that. In this episode, we look at John 19 and the strange, costly responses of the people who stayed when everyone else had gone, and we ask what it means to follow Jesus at the moment it would cost you the most. Watch the episode on video:  https://youtu.be/JcI_nrHwsqA   ----------------- My new book, The Edge of the Inside , is now available. You can get a signed copy or in whatever form you prefer: https://www.edgeoftheinside.com/ Join the online community and get access to exclusive content and experiences: https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/online-community Trying to make sense of faith? Download my free Deconstruction Field Guide . It's a ten-page resource to help you navigate what's next so you don't have to do it alone.   https://www.jeremyjernigan.com/opt-in  

People in this episode

Host: Jeremy Jernigan

Topics covered

• faith
• cost of discipleship
• following Jesus
• Gospel of John
• Nicodemus
• Christianity
• spirituality

Keywords

• Jesus
• cross
• discipleship
• costly faith
• Nicodemus
• Gospel
• Christianity
• spirituality
• John 19
• faith journey

Mentioned in this episode

Books & works: The Edge of the Inside

Places: John, Gospel of John

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