Lily Crowder / A Monday In February

About this episode

Lily Crowder shares her journey of grief and healing after the loss of her son, exploring faith and the presence of God in dark times.

In this deeply honest and sacred conversation, Lily Crowder shares the unthinkable journey of losing her 15-year-old son to suicide—and the slow, tender trust that followed. The conversation explored grief, trauma, and the dismantling of the God we thought we knew, making space for a bigger, more present God who meets us in our darkest places. This episode isn’t about easy answers—it’s about learning to sit in pain, to feel what we’ve been taught to avoid, and to rediscover beauty in the smallest moments, like the sound of birds breaking through the silence. If you’ve ever faced loss, wrestled with faith, or wondered if healing is possible, this conversation offers language, companionship, and hope. For more information about Lily https://www.lilycrowder.com/ JOIN our RGWT Subscriber-Based Community: https://promo.fourriversmedia.com/rethinking-god-with-tacos/ JOIN A Family Story's Mailing List https://dashing-field-76805.myflodesk.com/pie4be6wto JOIN the Rethinking God with Tacos Facebook Group at: https://www.facebook.com/groups/godandtacos Follow Rethinking God with Tacos on Instagram at: https://www.instagram.com/rethinkinggodwithtacos/ Follow Jason's personal Facebook page…

People in this episode

Host: Jason Clark

Guest: Lily Crowder

Topics covered

• grief
• loss
• faith
• healing
• trauma
• God

Keywords

• suicide
• grief
• faith
• healing
• loss
• God
• trauma
• beauty

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Organizations: Rethinking God with Tacos, A Family Story, Facebook, Instagram, Four Rivers Media

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