133 Days to Freedom: My Raw Journey Through Love Addiction & True Self Awakening

About this episode

Heidi Rain shares her personal journey through love addiction and self-discovery after a significant life challenge.

I’m back. Honestly, I don’t even know how I made it back alive, but here I am. What I’m coming back from is a full-blown meltdown that started on Mother’s Day and ended today—exactly 133 days later. When I look at that window of time, I’m actually impressed I survived it . For over a decade on YouTube, I’ve shown up every single week teaching about addiction—how to handle it, what to say, how to set boundaries, and how to navigate someone else’s dysfunction. I loved doing that for a long time. But behind the scenes, while I was helping others, something was happening to me. I was walking my own recovery path—from binge eating, binge drinking, and various self-sabotaging behaviors—and I shared those struggles publicly. I even created the “Love Yourself First Empowerment School” to help people heal from toxic relationships. And I was good at it. I dedicated my life to helping people speak their truth. But here’s the thing—I’m not here to tell you about yourself anymore or about the people in your life. Menopause cracked me open. It wasn’t a gentle awakening; it was a tunnel through hell. Over the past year and a half, I stripped away all the illusions—who I thought I was, what I…

People in this episode

Host: Heidi Rain

Topics covered

• love addiction
• self awakening
• recovery
• toxic relationships
• personal growth

Keywords

• love addiction
• self-sabotage
• recovery journey
• toxic relationships
• personal empowerment

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