About this episode

The episode discusses Saja Fendel's journey from suicidal despair to a deeper understanding of love and responsibility through spiritual awakening and psychedelics.

What if awakening doesn’t save you from your feelings – but asks you to feel everything more honestly? In this conversation, I speak with Saja Fendel, who went from a violent, chaotic adolescence and suicidal despair into a terrifying psychedelic collapse where he believed he’d caused all the suffering in existence – and then to a deep recognition that at a fundamental level everything is love. We explore: How unresolved pain and fear can masquerade as “spiritual seeking” Why awakening is not an escape from your trauma or your responsibilities The difference between non‑stick experience and spiritual bypassing Taking responsibility in relationships even when “no one is doing anything” Moving beyond the old guru‑student model into friendship, humour and normality Why fun, play and adventure are essential on the path This is a conversation about being fully human and fully awake – not one or the other. My website: https://www.simonmundie.com/ Book a coaching consultation: https://calendly.com/simon-wgw/simon-mundie-intro-call Free webinar on removing fear from the body: Tuesday 23rd @ 7pm UK time. REGISTER HERE: https://zoom.us/meeting/register/w11nYiYKSpqQkNj72g3L3Q For a gift of…

Topics covered

• mental health
• spiritual awakening
• psychedelics
• responsibility
• human experience
• trauma

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