Spencer Matthews: Drinking, Lying, and How Vogue Saved Him

About this episode

Spencer Matthews discusses his struggles with alcohol addiction and the journey towards recovery.

TV personality and endurance athlete Spencer Matthews joins Matt Willis to talk openly about how alcohol quietly took over his life, from waking up drunk and lying to the people closest to him, to feeling isolated, ashamed, and completely disconnected from the person he wanted to be. He shares how drinking stopped being social and became something he was doing alone, and the moment that forced him to confront what was really going on. There’s no neat turning point, just the realisation that something had to change. Spencer also reflects on channeling his addictive personality into endurance challenges, the structure that now keeps him on track, and the ongoing tension of replacing one obsession with another. This episode covers the following themes: addiction, shame, relationships, identity, recovery, discipline, and transformation. Need Support? Samaritans: Call 116 123 or visit samaritans.org Narcotics Anonymous: na.org Alcoholics Anonymous: alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk Mental Health Mates: mentalhealthmates.co.uk Shout: https: giveusashout.org IAPT: https://www.england.nhs.uk/mental-health/adults/nhs-talking-therapies/ Heights👉 Join Matt in getting your energy back with…

People in this episode

Host: Matt Willis

Guest: Spencer Matthews

Topics covered

• addiction
• shame
• relationships
• identity
• recovery
• discipline
• transformation

Keywords

• alcohol
• addiction
• recovery
• endurance
• shame
• identity
• transformation

Sponsors

Vitals, Randox Health

Mentioned in this episode

Organizations: Samaritans, Narcotics Anonymous, Alcoholics Anonymous, Mental Health Mates, Shout, IAPT

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