EP56: Into the Unknown | Andy's Amazon Eve, Fear, Grief & Why He's Doing This

EP56: Into the Unknown | Andy's Amazon Eve, Fear, Grief & Why He's Doing This

From Clean Break Chats by Andy Delderfield and Richard Casement

May 30, 2026 · 1h 2m · Episode 56

About this episode

Andy shares his thoughts and feelings before embarking on a challenging race through the Amazon rainforest.

Andy is calling in from Cusco, Peru. He flies into the jungle tomorrow. In 48 hours, he'll be on a start line for 230 kilometres through the Amazon rainforest over five days - four manageable days of 26 to 36K, and then a 75K final stage that starts at 4am and has taken some people 22 hours to complete. This is the conversation they had the day before all of that. Rich and Andy talk through what the race actually looks like, the logistics, the terrain, the cut-off times, and why 35K in the jungle can take more than 10 hours. Andy reflects on his desert race - the moment he ran out of water with 4K still to go, his hands swelling up, wedding ring bulging, collapsing into a checkpoint with 45 minutes to spare before the cutoff. And the 10K after that, when the voice telling him he wasn't good enough became the loudest thing in his head. He talks honestly about fear. Not the fear of the jungle, but the fear of that voice coming back when he's too tired to fight it. About whether, this time, he'll finally be able to prove to himself that the story isn't true. And then, quietly, he talks about grief. About wishing his dad could be on the end of a phone right now. About wanting to hear…

People in this episode

Hosts: Andy Delderfield, Richard Casement

Guest: Andy

Topics covered

  • fear
  • grief
  • running
  • self-doubt
  • personal challenge

Keywords

  • Amazon race
  • fear
  • grief
  • running challenge
  • self-doubt

Mentioned in this episode

Places: Cusco, Peru, Amazon rainforest

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