No Church in the Wild: How Depression Changed My Faith Forever

No Church in the Wild: How Depression Changed My Faith Forever

From It's About DAMN Time by Jarratt DAMN, DaWholeDamnShow

March 31, 2026 · 20 min · Episode 200

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The episode explores the impact of depression on faith and the struggle to maintain a relationship with God amidst mental health challenges.

I grew up in church. God was always the right answer. Mess up? God. Feel guilty? God. Need forgiveness? Quote a verse and reset. But depression changed everything. When my mental health started slipping, my faith didn’t disappear. My trust did. I didn’t feel guided. I didn’t feel covered. I didn’t feel held. And when I was struggling the most, I kept hearing the same thing: “You’re not praying hard enough.” In this episode, I talk openly about my fractured relationship with God. Not from a place of rebellion. From a place of honesty. I still believe in a Creator. I just don’t know what our relationship is anymore. This isn’t anti-God. It’s anti-performing faith. If you’ve ever felt abandoned in your darkest season… If your depression made you question what you were taught… If you believe but don’t feel connected… This conversation is for you. What We Talk About Growing up in a Black Southern household where God was the solution to everything How faith sometimes felt like a spiritual reset button When depression made trust disappear The “pray harder” narrative and how it damaged more than it healed Why suffering in the Bible is accepted, but mental health struggles aren’t…

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