Loksat: NPD with ASPD Traits - Abusive Relationship Patterns

Loksat: NPD with ASPD Traits - Abusive Relationship Patterns

From PD RAW by Nota Bene

January 18, 2026 · 59 min · Season 2 · Episode 48

About this episode

Loksat discusses his experiences with antisocial and narcissistic personality disorders and their impact on his relationships.

TRIGGER WARNING: DISCUSSIONS OF ABUSE Loksat was diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder (ASPD) at a young age but now, having started to reconnect with his feelings, believes he's more likely to be NPD. He talks about his deliberate manipulations of his BPD girlfriend, what her intense reactions mean to him, and how he finds safety in her acting out. As we dig down into the details of his life, we find powerful factors which have shaped his relationship behaviours, his understanding of the world, and his experience of love. Although the conversation initially might seem like it endorses Loksat acting in destructive ways, it doesn't. Loksat has never known any other way of being, and, as the conversation continues, it starts to become clear that Loksat is aware that he is working through his childhood traumas by recreating them. If we, the Cluster B's who behave in damaging ways within relationships, want to progress beyond those patterns, first we need to understand them. If we are in a relationship and on the receiving end of damaging behaviour, we need to understand it. Knowledge and insight will set us free.

People in this episode

Guest: Loksat

Topics covered

  • antisocial personality disorder
  • narcissistic personality disorder
  • abusive relationships
  • childhood trauma
  • relationship behaviors
  • mental health

Keywords

  • ASPD
  • NPD
  • abuse
  • manipulation
  • BPD
  • relationship patterns
  • mental health
  • trauma

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