About this episode
Nicole discusses her struggles with channeling anger as an organizer.
The case of the organizer who's afraid to stop being angry. Nicole knows how to be mad — and channel that into her work as a labor organizer and activist. The problem is, Nicole’s aggro mode doesn’t always stay in her political work. Sometimes it spills onto friends, family, and strangers. And underneath the anger, Nicole suspects there’s a feeling she’s afraid of: grief over the horrors she's fighting. against. In this episode, Yowei connects Nicole with Deborah Gould, a former ACT UP activist and political theorist who has spent decades studying the emotions that fuel and fracture movements. Together, Nicole and Deborah investigate rage, grief, queer organizing, erotic energy, despair, and how to stay in the work without losing yourself to it. From the episode: — Deborah Gould — Professor and Chair of Sociology at UC Santa Cruz , and author of Moving Politics: Emotion and ACT UP's Fight Against AIDS New to Proxy? Try Bisexual Wife Guy for a classic case, or Jane Doesn’t Like Her Dogs for another story about a feeling you're ashamed to admit. For episode liner notes, show gossip, and dispatches from the emotions beat, get our free newsletter File Under Feelings at proxyhq.org…
People in this episode
Host: Yowei Shaw
Guest: Nicole
Topics covered
- anger management
- activism
- sociology
- personal growth
- emotional expression
Keywords
- anger
- activism
- sociology
- emotions
- personal growth
Mentioned in this episode
Organizations: UC Santa Cruz
Books & works: Moving Politics: Emotion and ACT UP's Fight Against AIDS
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