He Loved Jesus but Couldn’t Stop Drinking: How JP Graves Went from Hidden Addiction to True Freedom

He Loved Jesus but Couldn’t Stop Drinking: How JP Graves Went from Hidden Addiction to True Freedom

From Confessions of a Christian Alcoholic with Jon Seidl by Jon Seidl

March 25, 2026 · 1h 23m · Episode 46

About this episode

JP Graves shares his journey from hidden addiction to finding true freedom in Jesus.

“You think you’re losing your best friend, but you’re gaining the ultimate friend in Jesus.” That’s how JP Graves describes what it felt like to walk away from alcohol. I felt that, too. Alcohol was always there for me no matter what. It told me I was right, it comforted me when I was wrong, and it always made it better—even if “better” was fleeting. When I gave it up, I had to grieve it. So did JP. On the outside, JP looked good. He loved Jesus. He was active in church. He had a career, a family, and a life that seemed normal and intact. But behind the scenes, alcohol had quietly become a constant. What started as freedom slowly turned into dependence. And then it got worse. By the end, JP wasn’t just drinking heavily—he was drinking all day. Vodka replaced beer. Ten drinks became twenty. His throat was so damaged he could barely swallow. He was hiding alcohol, living in deception, and drifting further from his wife and kids. And yet, he was still showing up to church. This episode doesn’t just explore addiction—it exposes the world that I and so many others have come to know: addiction that exists…

People in this episode

Host: Jon Seidl

Guest: JP Graves

Topics covered

  • addiction
  • faith
  • mental health
  • church culture
  • family
  • COVID-19
  • recovery

Keywords

  • alcohol addiction
  • Christianity
  • mental health
  • recovery
  • family
  • church
  • COVID-19

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