Combat Story

What happens after the uniform comes off? In this episode of Combat Story, AJ Pasciuti sits down with Army combat veteran, firefighter, MMA fighter, and author James McDevitt for one of the most honest conversations we've had about service, trauma, purpose, and the lifelong search for meaning after war. James shares his journey from growing up in a military family to deploying to Iraq as an 18-year-old convoy gunner during some of the deadliest years of the war. He talks about football, failure, identity, and the difficult transition from combat deployments back into civilian life. The conversation also dives deeply into the emotional realities of firefighting — including the lasting impact of trying to save a young child trapped in a house fire — and the psychological burden first responders and veterans often carry long after the moment ends. AJ and James discuss: What it feels like to make life-or-death decisions at 18 years old The addiction many veterans feel toward combat and high-stakes environments Why being "left out of the fight" can deeply affect soldiers psychologically Brotherhood, love, sacrifice, and why war creates bonds unlike anything else Football, MMA, firefighting, and finding identity after losing purpose PTSD, suicide, vulnerability, masculinity, and the importance of mentorship Why failure often teaches more than success ever can James also discusses his debut novel, A Walk Among Heroes, a story inspired by true events that explores war, love, loss, and what it means to come home after conflict. This episode is raw, reflective, and deeply human. If you're interested in military service, combat psychology, firefighting, leadership, masculinity, veteran transition, or the emotional realities behind war stories, this conversation will stay with you long after it ends. 🎙️ Guest — James McDevitt Army combat veteran, firefighter, MMA fighter, and author of A Walk Among Heroes. James writes and speaks about war, brotherhood, trauma, resilience, and the lifelong search for purpose after service. 📸 Instagram: @JamesMcDevittAuthor 🎵 TikTok: @JamesMcDevittAuthor ▶️ YouTube: @JamesMcDevittAuthor 📘 Facebook: @JamesMcDevittAuthor 🔗 Website: JamesMcDevittAuthor.com 🎙️ Host — AJ Pasciuti Retired Marine Force Recon Scout Sniper and Marine Gunner, author of Darkhorse: Harnessing Hidden Potential in War and Life, and host of Combat Story. 📕 Darkhorse: https://ajpasciuti.com/Darkhors 📸 AJ Pasciuti Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ajpasciuti/ 🔗 Website: https://www.ajpasciuti.com/ CHAPTERS 00:00 – The House Fire That Changed Everything 01:06 – Introduction | James McDevitt 03:20 – Why James Wrote "A Walk Among Heroes" 07:40 – Growing Up in a Military Family 13:10 – Football, Identity, and Young Masculinity 18:45 – Joining the Army After 9/11 25:00 – Iraq at 18 Years Old 31:20 – Convoy Combat and Daily Violence 39:50 – Brotherhood in War 47:10 – The Addiction to High-Stakes Environments 54:20 – Coming Home from Combat 1:01:40 – Firefighting and Exposure to Death 1:09:15 – Trying to Save a Child in a House Fire 1:18:20 – PTSD, Suppression, and Emotional Numbness 1:26:30 – MMA Fighting and Finding Purpose 1:34:10 – Veterans, Suicide, and Isolation 1:42:00 – Why Failure Shapes Us 1:49:15 – Writing Fiction Inspired by Real Experience 1:56:30 – Advice for Young Men Considering Service 2:02:10 – Final Thoughts on Brotherhood and Purpose

In this episode of Combat Story, we sit down with Elliot Ackerman—former Marine infantry officer, CIA paramilitary operations officer, journalist, and bestselling author. Elliot takes us inside some of the most intense moments of modern warfare, from the brutal urban combat of Fallujah in 2004 to special operations deployments in Afghanistan and later transitioning into the CIA. He walks us through a harrowing platoon-level fight where his unit was surrounded, badly wounded, and forced to blow their way out under fire—starting the day with 46 Marines and ending with just 21 combat effective. But this conversation goes deeper than tactics and timelines. Elliot reflects on leadership under pressure, the mental toll of combat, and how war shapes identity long after the fighting ends. He also shares a remarkable story of sitting down years later with a former al-Qaeda in Iraq fighter—two men who once hunted each other, now trying to understand the same war from opposite sides. This is a powerful discussion about brotherhood, memory, storytelling, and why veterans become the custodians of history when wars end. If you're interested in Marine infantry combat, Fallujah 2004, special operations, the CIA, or the deeper human meaning of war—this is an episode you won't want to miss.

The Second Battle of Fallujah — also known as Operation Phantom Fury — was one of the most intense urban combat engagements fought by U.S. forces since Vietnam. In this gripping documentary, real Marines, soldiers, and corpsmen recount the chaos, courage, and sacrifice that defined Fallujah, Iraq, in November 2004. This is not a scripted Hollywood war story. These are the firsthand voices of men who fought house to house, clearing buildings block by block in what became a defining moment of the Iraq War. Through raw interviews and authentic battlefield audio, this film captures the human side of modern warfare — the camaraderie, the fear, the humor, and the heartbreak that only those who lived it can truly describe. At its core, Battle of Fallujah II is a story of brotherhood under fire. The Marines of 3rd Battalion, 5th Marines (India Company) and their brothers from 1/8 and other units share what it was like to face an enemy that called Fallujah home — an insurgent stronghold fortified by foreign fighters, Al-Qaeda extremists, and jihadists determined to die there. From the first breach through the city's northern berm to the final house cleared along the Euphrates River, the battle tested every ounce of discipline, endurance, and faith these men had. You'll hear the personal accounts of hospital corpsmen risking everything to save wounded Marines, snipers like Tony Scardino and Chris Kyle trading shots in the same building, and infantrymen recounting split-second decisions that meant life or death. The film also revisits the leadership and sacrifice of officers and NCOs who never came home — men like Maj. Sean Sims, Capt. Ed Iwan, and Sgt. Maj. Cavaiani, whose courage inspired those still fighting. Each memory in this documentary is seared with authenticity: The claustrophobic streets filled with traps and ambushes. The roar of tanks and AAVs breaching into the city. The eerie quiet before dawn as Marines wrote what they called "death letters" to their families. The moment when a platoon found itself isolated and surrounded, fighting for survival until air support could reach them. Battle of Fallujah II goes beyond tactics and timelines. It's about what happens after — how these veterans carried the memories of their fallen brothers, how they grappled with loss, and how they continue to honor those who never made it home. This film also examines the broader historical context: the political timing after the 2004 U.S. presidential election, the symbolism of reclaiming Fallujah from Al-Qaeda in Iraq, and the strategic shift toward large-scale urban warfare. For many who served, Fallujah became their generation's Normandy — a defining battle that shaped the course of their lives and the legacy of the Marine Corps. Throughout the documentary, voices like Elliot Ackerman, Travis Greenwood, and Justin Oliver bring depth to the narrative — reflecting on leadership, moral complexity, and what it means to serve in a fight where the lines between survival and sacrifice blur. The film does not glorify war. It reveals it. From the grit of medevac missions and sniper overwatch to the quiet moments of remembrance years later, this is the raw, unfiltered story of those who stood shoulder to shoulder in one of the fiercest battles of the modern era. 🎖️ Featuring: Elliot Ackerman | Travis Greenwood | Tony Scardino | Scott Prill | Justin Oliver | Chris Kyle | Doc Pell | and the Marines of 3/5 India Company 📅 Timeline: November 2004 – Operation Phantom Fury 📍 Location: Fallujah, Al Anbar Province, Iraq 💬 Themes: Urban warfare and military brotherhood Sacrifice and survival in modern combat PTSD, resilience, and life after war Firsthand veteran testimony and oral history The human cost of the Iraq War Get 20% off your DeleteMe plan when you go to joindeleteme.com/ COMBAT and use promo code COMBAT at checkout. Timestamps: 00:00 – Intro 01:00 – Preparing for Battle 03:00 – The Enemy's Stronghold 05:00 – The Invasion Plan and Forces Assembled 07:00 – Into the City: Breaching the Berm 09:00 – Snipers and Scouts: Eyes of the Battle 12:00 – Letters Before Combat: Facing Mortality 13:00 – The First Casualties 15:00 – Chaos and Courage in the Streets 17:00 – Mechanized Assault on the Government Center 20:00 – Snipers and SEALs: Chris Kyle's Overwatch 23:00 – Corpsmen in the Crossfire 27:00 – House-to-House Combat 30:00 – The Cost of Brotherhood 36:00 – "Be Advised, There's a War On" 41:00 – Holding the Line 45:00 – Breaking Through: The Candy Store Stronghold 50:00 – Urban Hell: Five Hours, 400 Meters 55:00 – Acts of Valor and Survival 1:00:00 – The Medal of Honor Fight 1:05:00 – Aftermath: A City in Ruins 1:10:00 – Reflections and Legacy 1:15:00 – The Human Cost of War 1:18:00 – Why We Fought 1:20:00 – Closing Thoughts: Remembering the Warriors #BattleOfFallujah #Fallujah2004 #IraqWar #USMarines

In this incredible episode, Mark Wales, a former Australian SAS officer, opens up about his military journey. From his initial days in the Australian infantry to transitioning into the elite Special Forces, Mark reflects on his most pivotal experiences, including dangerous combat missions and the mental and physical toll of war. He shares intimate details about his service, his motivation to join Special Forces, and the challenges of losing friends in combat. Mark's story isn't just about the highs of military life; it's also about the realities, the struggles with PTSD, and the transition back to civilian life. He talks about what it means to have the courage to face adversity, the bonds formed between soldiers, and how he now uses his experiences to inspire others as a corporate speaker. A must-watch for anyone interested in the warrior spirit, leadership, resilience, and the human side of combat. 🎙️ About Ryan Fugit: Ryan is the creator and host of Combat Story, a podcast that captures the firsthand accounts of combat veterans, and Restricted Handling, which explores authoritarian activity and international security through conversations with world-class experts. 🔔 Subscribe for more interviews with military veterans, intelligence professionals, and leaders shaping the future of national security. Find AJ Online: 📸 Instagram: /ajpasciuti 📘 LinkedIn: /angelo-pasciuti 👉Combat Story Podcast (Part 1 – USMC Sniper & Force Recon in Fallujah): https://open.spotify.com/episode/4aqn 👉Combat Story Podcast (Part 2 – Sniper vs Sniper Battle): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast 👉Urban Valor Facebook Feature: / 602000529075284 👉DVIDS Video on Infantry Marine Course: https://www.nationalguard.mil/Leaders Find Ryan Online: 🎙️ Ryan's Linktree 🔗 Merch: Bonfire Store 🛒 Email: ryan@combatstory.com 📸 Instagram @combatstory / combatstory 📘 Facebook @combatstoryofficial Link 🎵 Intro Song: Sport Rock from Audio Jungle Time Stamps: 00:00 Introduction to Mark Wales 00:57 Joining the Special Forces 01:42 Life After the Military 05:30 Combat Experiences and Near Misses 09:35 Dealing with Loss and Grief 16:42 Mental Health and PTSD 19:43 Reflections and Traditions 23:39 Conclusion and Final Thoughts

🎖️ From Marine Sniper to Army Special Operations Veteran | Erick Miyares' Unbelievable Combat Story 🇺🇸. In this powerful episode, we sit down with Erick Miyares — a retired Special Operations soldier who began his journey in the U.S. Marine Corps and went on to serve in the Army's 7th Special Forces Group and an Army Special Missions Unit under U.S. SOCOM. Eric takes us deep into the realities of war, from the jungles of Central and South America to the battlefields of Afghanistan and Iraq. He opens up about taking a life, losing brothers, living with post-traumatic stress, and finding healing and purpose after decades in the shadows. This is more than a combat story — it's about resilience, identity, and redemption. Eric's transition from elite soldier to PhD student in Cyber Psychology shows how warriors continue to serve even after the battlefield. 🔥 What You'll Learn in This Episode: The truth about life inside Special Operations How elite warriors process trauma and rebuild What it's like to order a kinetic strike — and live with it Lessons in discipline, humility, and healing from a 30-year veteran The mindset of those who operate in the world's most dangerous environments 💡 About Eric Ez Miyares: Retired U.S. Army Special Operations veteran Former Marine Corps sniper Served in Panama, Colombia, Ecuador, Afghanistan, Iraq, and beyond Now a PhD candidate in Cyber Psychology, studying cognitive resilience Advocate for mental health and veterans' reintegration 💬 Support & Resources: If you or someone you know is struggling with post-traumatic stress, reach out for help. You are not alone. 👉 Visit VeteransHelpGroup.com or call (855) 231-6144. 🎙️ About Ryan Fugit: Ryan is the creator and host of Combat Story, a podcast that captures the firsthand accounts of combat veterans, and Restricted Handling, which explores authoritarian activity and international security through conversations with world-class experts. Check out the Retricted Handling podcast at www.restrictedhandling.com 🔔 Subscribe for more interviews with military veterans, intelligence professionals, and leaders shaping the future of national security. Find Erick Miyares : 📘 LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/erick-miyares/ Find AJ Online: 📸Instagram: / ajpasciuti 📘 LinkedIn: / angelo-pasciuti 🔗Personal Website & Book Pre-Order ("Darkhorse"): https://www.ajpasciuti.com/ 👉Combat Story Podcast (Part 1 – USMC Sniper & Force Recon in Fallujah): https://open.spotify.com/episode/4aqn 👉Combat Story Podcast (Part 2 – Sniper vs Sniper Battle): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast 👉Urban Valor Facebook Feature: / 602000529075284 👉DVIDS Video on Infantry Marine Course: https://www.nationalguard.mil/Leaders Find Ryan Online: 🎙️ Ryan's Linktree https://linktr.ee/combatstory 🔗Merch https://www.bonfire.com/store/combats 🛒 Email ryan@combatstory.com 📸 Instagram @combatstory / combatstory 📘 Facebook @combatstoryofficial https://fb.me/combatstoryofficial Check out the Retricted Handling podcast at www.restrictedhandling.com 📖 Send us messages at https://m.me/combatstoryofficial ✔ Learn more about Ryan www.combatstory.com/aboutus 🎵 Intro Song: Sport Rock from Audio Jungle 📘 Chapters: 00:00 – Introduction: Meet Eric Ez Miyares 01:00 – Marine Corps beginnings & escaping the streets of Miami 02:00 – Lessons learned from the Corps: discipline and humility 03:00 – The weight of pulling the trigger and ordering strikes 05:00 – Facing death in the Middle East and processing fear 07:00 – Living with Post-Traumatic Stress (without the "D") 08:30 – Opening Pandora's Box: therapy and healing 10:00 – Rediscovering purpose through resilience and service 11:00 – Sacrifices of family life during decades of deployments 13:00 – Cognitive fatigue and the toll of 20 years at war 14:30 – Finding brotherhood, connection, and purpose after combat 15:30 – The dual life: operator and intelligence professional 17:00 – The veteran bond and the humor that keeps them going 18:00 – The lighter side: local food, culture, and MRE memories 20:00 – Healing, time, and reflecting on legacy 21:30 – Lessons learned and why he'd serve again 23:00 – Closing reflections on purpose, family, and discipline

In this episode, we sit down with Ryan Fugit — former Army attack helicopter pilot, CIA Directorate of Operations officer, and host of Combat Story and Restricted Handling for an inside look at a life spent on the front lines of America's wars and intelligence operations. Ryan shares raw and insightful stories from his time flying AH-64 Apache helicopters in Afghanistan and from his years conducting global operations with the CIA's Directorate of Operations. From the intensity of combat to the complexity of modern intelligence work, Ryan reflects on the lessons, challenges, and defining moments that shaped his approach to leadership, resilience, and purpose. We also discuss his transition from public service to leading trust and safety investigations in Silicon Valley, and how his experiences inform his mission to protect people from harm in the digital age. Ryan has now created the Restricted Handling podcast featuring daily, curated insights and news on Russia, China, Iran, North Korea, the Middle East and more with weekly deep dives with Ryan and former CIA legends about what's going on in the world of geopolitics, international security, and military and intelligence operations. Subscribe for FREE daily insights at www.restrictedhandling.com. 🎙️ About Ryan Fugit: Ryan is the creator and host of Combat Story, a podcast that captures the firsthand accounts of combat veterans, and Restricted Handling, which explores authoritarian activity and international security through conversations with world-class experts. Check out the Retricted Handling podcast at www.restrictedhandling.com 🔔 Subscribe for more interviews with military veterans, intelligence professionals, and leaders shaping the future of national security. Find AJ Online: 📸Instagram: / ajpasciuti 📘 LinkedIn: / angelo-pasciuti 🔗Personal Website & Book Pre-Order ("Darkhorse"): https://www.ajpasciuti.com/ 👉Combat Story Podcast (Part 1 – USMC Sniper & Force Recon in Fallujah): https://open.spotify.com/episode/4aqn 👉Combat Story Podcast (Part 2 – Sniper vs Sniper Battle): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast 👉Urban Valor Facebook Feature: / 602000529075284 👉DVIDS Video on Infantry Marine Course: https://www.nationalguard.mil/Leaders Find Ryan Online: 🎙️ Ryan's Linktree https://linktr.ee/combatstory 🔗Merch https://www.bonfire.com/store/combats 🛒 Email ryan@combatstory.com 📸 Instagram @combatstory / combatstory 📘 Facebook @combatstoryofficial https://fb.me/combatstoryofficial Check out the Retricted Handling podcast at www.restrictedhandling.com 📖 Send us messages at https://m.me/combatstoryofficial ✔ Learn more about Ryan www.combatstory.com/aboutus 🎵 Intro Song: Sport Rock from Audio Jungle Chapters: 0:00 Intro 01:53 Introduction 08:12 The Impact of 9/11 17:04 Choosing the Aviation Path 26:37 The Competitive World of Aviation 30:02 Imposter Syndrome and Military Service 37:05 Pop Culture Influences 44:22 First Unit Assignment 44:56 Early Days in the Cavalry Unit 46:09 The Battle of March 23, 2003 48:00 Life in Germany and the Desire to Deploy 50:01 First Deployment to Afghanistan 54:25 Challenges of Command and Crew Rest 59:00 Navigating Leadership and Combat Decisions 01:23:26 Reflecting on a Tragic Incident 01:24:40 Sponsor Message: Protect Your Privacy with Delete Me 01:26:07 Making Tough Decisions in the Military 01:28:44 Transitioning to Civilian Life and the CIA 01:34:38 Starting a Podcast: Inspiration and Challenges 01:52:13 Highs, Lows, and Laughs of Podcasting 02:03:01 Future Plans and New Ventures

In remembrance of the attacks on September 11th, 2001, we have a special guest on the show, and for the first time in our Combat Story community, we'd like to introduce Darin Kinder — Former Secret Service Agent • 9/11 Survivor. Darin Kinder brings a rare blend of courage, clarity, and conviction from years spent navigating the world's most high-pressure moments. As a former Secret Service Agent and survivor of the 9/11 attacks, he uses his story to help individuals and leaders live with bold purpose and unwavering resilience. Author of Bury Me in a Dirty Suit: Discovering Man's Valiant Purpose in the Aftermath of 9/11, Darin invites listeners to reframe how they live—seeing everyday work not simply as provision, but as purpose in motion. His own experience, assisting, evacuating, and enduring on that fateful day, embodies the idea that courage is always a choice. Darin's story is one of heroism and humility—his actions during the 9/11 attacks earned him the Secret Service Medal of Valor. As the founder of Fierce Comms, based in Dallas, Darin empowers people to rediscover mission and meaning—not just in what they do, but why they do it. Through keynote talks and multi-session seminars, he challenges audiences to "get their suit dirty"—to choose the narrow, courageous path of sacrifice over comfort. Join us as we sit down with Darin Kinder—a man who invites us to embrace the grit of life, unlock purpose in our work, and live courageously, even when the world tells us we can't. Find Darin Kinder Online: 🔗 Website: https://www.darinkinder.com/ 📸 Instagram / darinkinder Find AJ Online: 📸Instagram: / ajpasciuti 📘 LinkedIn: / angelo-pasciuti 🔗Personal Website & Book Pre-Order ("Darkhorse"): https://www.ajpasciuti.com/ 👉Combat Story Podcast (Part 1 – USMC Sniper & Force Recon in Fallujah): https://open.spotify.com/episode/4aqn... 👉Combat Story Podcast (Part 2 – Sniper vs Sniper Battle): https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast 👉Urban Valor Facebook Feature: / 602000529075284 👉DVIDS Video on Infantry Marine Course: https://www.nationalguard.mil/Leaders Find Ryan Online: 🎙️ Ryan's Linktree https://linktr.ee/combatstory 🔗Merch https://www.bonfire.com/store/combats 🛒 Email ryan@combatstory.com 📸 Instagram @combatstory / combatstory 📘 Facebook @combatstoryofficial https://fb.me/combatstoryofficial 📖 Send us messages at https://m.me/combatstoryofficial ✔ Learn more about Ryan www.combatstory.com/aboutus 🎵 Intro Song: Sport Rock from Audio Jungle Chapters: 00:40 Introduction 00:59 Meet Darren Kinder: 9/11 Survivor and Secret Service Agent 02:47 The Story Behind 'Bury Me In a Dirty Suit' 07:17 Darren's Path to the Secret Service 11:06 Inside the Secret Service: Training and Missions 24:20 First Days in New York: Pre-9/11 Assignments 30:58 Isolation and Law Enforcement Collaboration 31:24 AJ Pesi's Story and New Book Announcement 32:46 Recounting 9/11: Initial Impact and Evacuation 35:59 Heroic Efforts and Personal Sacrifices 45:55 Surviving the Collapse and Aftermath 56:02 Reflecting on the Day and Moving Forward 57:06 Veterans Help Group Sponsorship 58:28 Divine Intervention and Final Thoughts 01:01:47 Evacuation Efforts on 9/11 01:02:37 Returning Home and Reuniting with Family 01:04:32 Receiving the Secret Service Medal of Valor 01:05:31 Serving on the New York Joint Terrorism Task Force 01:06:23 Protecting President George W. Bush 01:07:38 Reflecting on 9/11 and Ground Zero 01:14:29 Traveling the World with the Secret Service 01:18:40 Memorable Moments and Close Calls 01:24:06 Leadership Lessons and Personal Reflections 01:30:28 Final Thoughts and Farewell