Delusional Diaries

this week on Delusional Diaries, Halley and Jaz are joined by Alicia Crowder, aka Diana from Tell Me Lies, and it’s peak fangirl chaos and behind-the-scenes tea. they get into the cult-like TikTok community around the show, insane fan theories that almost outdo the writers, and what it’s like to watch people dissect your character in real time. from auditioning over Zoom and finding out she booked the role while sitting on her couch, to the shock of reading THAT plot twist, Alicia shares what it’s really like being at the center of one of the internet’s most unhinged relationship dramas.the girls dive deep into Diana’s psychology: ambition, codependency, perfectionism, and that terrifying type-A composure that somehow still cracks. they talk toxic men, manipulation disguised as love, and why Stephen isn’t strategic, he just wants control. Alicia opens up about Juilliard, 15-hour shoot days, filming scenes out of order, memorizing five-page dialogues, and the pressure of delivering emotional chaos on cue at 4 a.m. plus, the subtle power move of asking writers to let Diana score higher on the LSAT (as she should).and because this is Delusional Diaries, it wouldn’t be complete without a little fun: Diana answering Hinge prompts, night owl vs. morning person debates, dog-mom routines, superstitions during auditions, and the very real spiral of waiting to hear if you’re “the final two.” it’s a mix of ambition, vulnerability, internet obsession, and the reminder that even the most put-together girls are still human. chaotic, thoughtful, and slightly delusional, obviously. just, with a special guest this time!Timestamps0:17 - Alicia Crowder from Tell Me Lies 14:45 - Season 3 reactions (and spoilers) 21:18 - If Diana was on Hinge 27:30 - Auditioning for Tell Me Lies 35:41 - Need a Season 4 Follow Alicia CrowderInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/alicialucillecrowder?igsh=MXdwNnlqYnlxdzk2bw==TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@alicialucillecrowder?_r=1&_t=ZP-93qX27Ub0DXMore of Delusional Diaries Podcast:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/delusionaldiariespodcast/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@delusionaldiariespodcastYoutube: https://www.youtube.com/@DelusionaldiariespodcastSubstack: https://delusionaldiariespodcast.substack.com/Website: https://delusionaldiaries.com/More of Halley:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/halleykmcg/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@halleykateMore of Jaz:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/justjazzzyidk/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@justjazzzyidkYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/justjazzzyidkSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

in this episode of Delusional Diaries, Halley is officially engaged… yes let’s take a moment. and she’s recording minutes after surviving a truly cursed international travel day. fresh off a chaotic europe run (Rome, the French Alps, Geneva, Zurich & probably hell too after the insane travel), the girls unpack surprise engagements, emotional whiplash, canceled flights, snowstorms, and why airports bring out your worst personality traits.they get into luxury delusions vs. reality: hermes bag politics, resale drama, obscene swiss prices, brand-trip burnout, ski towns without the skiing, and why being a tourist is actually the correct approach to traveling. Halley breaks down how getting engaged didn’t magically change her life or personality, while Jaz keeps things grounded with humor, honesty, and a shared love of spa resets, elite chocolate, and friendship decompression.naturally, the conversation spirals: travel-day crash-outs, snapping at your partner for absolutely no reason, quitting habits during a snowstorm, the existential pressure to have a “hobby,” and the realization that some people thrive in chaos more than consistency. engagement glow, nervous system fried. no pretending, no polishing, just your two favorite besties breaking down everything.Timestamps 0:28 - Travel days & engagements 11:03 - Halley’s first time skiing 18:16 - Switzerland  32:00 - Rest days and hobbies42:41 - The Price is Right More of Delusional Diaries Podcast:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/delusionaldiariespodcast/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@delusionaldiariespodcastYoutube: https://www.youtube.com/@DelusionaldiariespodcastSubstack: https://delusionaldiariespodcast.substack.com/Website: https://delusionaldiaries.com/More of Halley:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/halleykmcg/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@halleykateMore of Jaz:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/justjazzzyidk/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@justjazzzyidkYouTube: https://www.youtube.com/justjazzzyidkSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

this week on Delusional Diaries, Halley and Jaz catch up after a chaotic start to the new year and talk about what it actually looks like to slow down without losing their minds. they unpack travel burnout, the pressure to always be on the move, and the realization that building your entire schedule around workout classes, waitlists, and cancellation fees might not be the healthiest lifestyle choice. from embracing solo gym time to treadmill editing and the ongoing Pilates discourse, the girls share what routines feel sustainable right now, and which ones quietly make life harder than it needs to be.as always, the episode naturally drifts into a classic B**ching Hour™️, covering the annoyances that shouldn’t matter but absolutely do. Halley vents about unnecessary rush fees and timing mishaps, while both girls spiral over delayed luggage, winter trips being impossible to pack for, and the stress of brand travel when your jacket is basically your entire outfit. they also talk about reading podcast comments, dealing with online opinions, and the mental balance of appreciating positive feedback without letting praise, or criticism, get too personal.the episode wraps with nostalgia that you probably will relate to as well, from teenage sleepovers, fake IDs, Four Lokos, and sneaking alcohol to the unmatched joy of girls’ nights before men became the center of everything. they touch on dogs, adoption realities, new hobbies that may or may not last, and the shared delusion that this year is somehow going to be the one. nothing groundbreaking, just a very real, very Halley & Jaz episode.Timestamps 0:40 - Intentional traveling 8:30 - Bitching hour 16:68 - Podcast comment section 33:41 - Jaz’s new hobby 40:15 - Our first drinks 54:46 - What is the most annoying quality anyone could have 56:24 - Hinge prompts See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

it is New Year’s Eve, and in this episode of Delusional Diaries, Halley and Jaz catch up after a rough holiday stretch, unpacking everything from being violently sick with the flu to navigating grief, canceled plans, and the strange emotional whiplash that comes with the end of the year. they reflect on Christmas not going as expected, the loneliness that can creep in during downtime, and how loss puts everything into perspective, even when you don’t quite know what to say or feel.from there, the girls spiral into their classic b**ching hour, one last time for 2025: why shopping in Aritzia should be classified as an extreme sport, why sidewalk etiquette in New York is apparently a lost art, and the internet’s obsession with correcting women in relationships. they also get candid about online comments, ownership, boundaries, and why saying “we” doesn’t suddenly erase a woman’s independence or accomplishments.the episode wraps with a chaotic but heartfelt 2025 recap: favorite songs, trips, outfits, purchases, crash-outs, and milestones, along with reflections on female friendship, partnership vs. best friendship, and why having your person in different forms matters. we’re closing the year exactly as we lived it: honest, imperfect, and surrounded by the people who make it survivable. if this year humbled you, broke you open, or changed you forever, this episode is for you.Timestamps 0:23 - Jaz’s flu 8:06 - Bitching hour 16:01 - Is your husband your best friend?22:06 - Heated Rivalry 27:23 - Our 2025 wrapped 44:42 - 12 Grapes under the table More of Delusional Diaries Podcast:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/delusionaldiariespodcast/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@delusionaldiariespodcastYoutube: https://www.youtube.com/@DelusionaldiariespodcastSubstack: https://delusionaldiariespodcast.substack.com/Website: https://delusionaldiaries.com/See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

In this episode of Delusional Diaries, Halley and Jaz sit down with Mel Robbins. Mel Robbins is a bestselling author, one of the most sought-after motivational speakers in the world, and the host of The Mel Robbins Podcast. She is known for translating complex psychological research into practical tools people can actually use, including the Five Second Rule, the High Five Habit, and the Let Them theory. Her work has helped millions build confidence, reduce anxiety, and take ownership of their lives through simple, science-backed strategies.The three are behind the mic for a grounded, honest conversation about emotional regulation, boundaries, and what it actually takes to reclaim your sense of control. Mel breaks down the thinking behind her Let Them theory and explains why so much of our stress comes from trying to manage other people’s emotions, reactions, and expectations.Together, they explore how letting go of control doesn’t mean indifference, it means responsibility. Mel shares practical tools for handling anxiety, navigating conflict without self-abandonment, and responding to emotional triggers with clarity instead of impulse. The conversation moves beyond surface-level self-help and into the real work of tolerating discomfort, sitting with difficult emotions, and choosing responses that align with your values.This episode is for anyone who feels emotionally drained, overly reactive, or stuck in patterns that no longer serve them. It’s a reminder that peace isn’t passive… it’s built through awareness, boundaries, and the decision to take your power back, one moment at a time.Timestamps 0:16 - This week’s guest 4:47 - How we Let Them 12:41 - Acting on emotions16:53 - Mel’s challenge for everyone30:34 - Do you want advice or do you want me to keep listening? 35:51 - Mom and daughter dynamics 44:58 - Fighting in relationships More of Mel Robbins:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/melrobbins/Website: https://www.melrobbins.com/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@melrobbinsBuy The Let Them Theory here: https://www.melrobbins.com/book/the-let-them-theory/More of Delusional Diaries Podcast:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/delusionaldiariespodcast/TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@delusionaldiariespodcastYoutube: https://www.youtube.com/@DelusionaldiariespodcastSubstack: https://delusionaldiariespodcast.substack.com/Website: https://delusionaldiaries.com/LinksClearstem: clearstem.com/delusional and use code delusional for 15% off your first order See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.