The Deep Blue

Have you ever had a sudden, intense flash of a random memory drop into your mind out of nowhere?In this weeks episode of podcast, Blue breaks down the profound phenomenon of "Time Travel Therapy". Rather than treating spontaneous flashbacks as random cognitive static, we look at them as a literal distress call or a download reaching across space-time from a past version of you that needs help, comfort, and validation. Blue shares a powerful personal story of connecting with his 25-year-old self and explains how opening up these memory "attachments" serves as low-hanging fruit for deep somatic shadow integration. We also explore a massive community topic: continuous high-pitched ear ringing. Blue discusses his 14-year history with this frequency, how to treat it as an environmental dial instead of a nuisance, and how the ears function as a sensory gateway to achieving synchronized hemispheres of consciousness. Want to work with Blue?Book your 1:1 session now- https://blueflower.love/ Support the Podcast & Save $$🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool Clothing Save 15%🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUE💻Google Workspace- Save 10% off your first year🔗Click Here → https://referworkspace.app.goo.gl/BCmc✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love 📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXh Follow Blue on Insta- https://instagram.com/blue.flower.loveFacebook- https://www.facebook.com/blueflowerofficial

Are you using your relationships to hide, or are you using them to heal? In this live Q&A episode, Blue dives deep into the dynamic of relationship mirroring. We explore why we often find ourselves in conflict that feels all too familiar, and how our current partners act as mirrors for the "shadow" parts of ourselves we haven't yet integrated. This conversation offers a game-changing tool for couples: The "Pause" Button. Learn how to stop an activated interaction before your nervous system hijacks your brain, and how to practice "accountable communication" to ensure both partners feel seen, validated, and safe. We explore:•Relationship Mirroring: Why conflict is actually a beautiful opportunity to see the parts of your shadow you can't find on your own. •The "Pause" Button: How to use a "get out of jail free card" to de-escalate triggers and regulate your nervous system. •The Mirror of Parents: Recognizing that you don't treat yourself how your parents treated you, but how they treated themselves. •Unmet Needs: How to meet the needs of your past versions—going all the way back to childhood—within your current connections. •Validation as a Need: Why being witnessed and heard is as vital to a relationship as breathing is to the body. Support the Podcast & Save $$🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool Clothing Save 15%🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUE💻Google Workspace- Save 10% off your first year🔗Click Here → https://referworkspace.app.goo.gl/BCmc✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love 📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXh Want to work with Blue?Book your 1:1 session now- https://blueflower.love/ Follow Blue on Insta- https://instagram.com/blue.flower.loveFacebook- https://www.facebook.com/blueflowerofficial

Are you starving for a connection you didn't even know you needed?In this solo deep dive, Blue explores a powerful shift in perspective: connection and attachment aren't just "nice to have"—they are as essential to your survival as food, water, and air. Blue breaks down how our early familial relationships mold our subconscious view of safety. If attachment was dangerous or inconsistent for you as a child, you might find yourself pushing people away today out of fear. We explore:• The Newborn Blueprint: Why physical attachment is a literal survival mechanism.• The Safety Audit: Recognizing if your early programming taught you that connection is "dangerous".• Signals of Depletion: How anxiety, depression, and avoidance are often symptoms of unmet connection needs.• The Shadow of Chaos: Why we sometimes cause drama just to get the validation and attention we crave.• Nervous System Regulation: How to stop the "pushing away" mode by calming your internal "two-year-old".• Phase Two Healing: Shifting from understanding why you are the way you are to choosing what you want to be next.This episode is an invitation to stop treating connection as a luxury and start treating it as the foundational medicine for your nervous system. Support the Podcast & Save $$🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool Clothing Save 15%🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUE💻Google Workspace- Save 10% off your first year🔗Click Here → https://referworkspace.app.goo.gl/BCmc✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love 📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXh Want to work with Blue?Book your 1:1 session now- https://blueflower.love/ Follow Blue on Insta- https://instagram.com/blue.flower.loveFacebook- https://www.facebook.com/blueflowerofficial

Are you defining your life by your traumatic milestones, or by who you are becoming? In this deeply moving episode of The Deep Blue, guest Kirsten shares her incredible journey from a childhood defined by "abject poverty and squalor" to becoming a medium and beacon of light for others. Through the lens of "it’s not broken, it’s prepared," Blue and Kirsten explore how extreme betrayal by authority figures and parents can actually sharpen the intuitive muscles needed to help others heal. Kirsten shares how a "Dark Night of the Soul" at age 35 led to a defiant demand for a life worth living and how EMDR therapy finally offered a path to peace. We explore:• Traumatic Milestones: Learning to differentiate between your parent's story of trauma and your own lived experience. • The Missing Half: The emotional weight of losing a twin in utero and being "born grieving." • Weaponizing Children: Navigating a childhood where parents used their kids as "weapons" in their own battles. • Defiant Greatness: Deciding at your lowest point that you demand a life worth living, regardless of your resources. • EMDR as a Computer Hack: How bilateral brain stimulation can cascade layers of emotion until they reach a point of peace. • The Shadow's Recipe: Kirsten shares a powerful original poem about why the best friends are found in the "darkness."Support the Podcast & Save $$🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool Clothing Save 15%🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUE💻Google Workspace- Save 10% off your first year🔗Click Here → https://referworkspace.app.goo.gl/BCmc✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love 📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXh Follow KirstenTikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@krs10myFacebook- https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=61582343466246Want to work with Blue?Book your 1:1 session now- https://blueflower.love/ Follow Blue on Insta- https://instagram.com/blue.flower.loveFacebook- https://www.facebook.com/blueflowerofficial

Are you running from your shadow, or are you ready to use it as a springboard for growth?In this profound conversation, Mathew Runningwolf joins Blue to discuss the wild ride of human evolution. Mathew shares his journey from a childhood split between Southern Baptist traditions and Native American ceremonies to facilitating intensive plant medicine retreats. Mathew reveals the hard lessons learned from standing up to corruption in spiritual organizations and how he navigated being forcibly committed by family after a massive spiritual awakening. This episode is a masterclass in alchemy: learning how to reframe pain as an anointing and recognizing that your vibration is quite literally your location in hyperspace.We explore:•Hyperspace Vibration: Why your diet, thoughts, and interactions decide your location in creation.•The Shadow in Ceremony: The dangers of holding space without being properly equipped and the lesson of "condoning what you don't stand up for".•The Tower Moments: Losing everything—cars, jobs, and homes—as a path to touching the truest version of the self.•Transcending the Ego: Expanding the "I" from the skin to the rocks, the trees, and the birds.•Self-Grace vs. Shame: Why "white-knuckling" your way through spirituality isn't healthy and how to surfboard the waves of your own vibration.Support the Podcast & Save $$🧥 Get 15 % off at Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool Clothing🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUEGet 10% on your first year of Google Workspace→ https://referworkspace.app.goo.gl/BCmcYou don't have to heal alone. 💥Join the Deep Blue Wave Community Now!https://blueflower.love/deepbluewavecommunity🌐 Follow Mathew-TikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@rnngwlfWork with Mathew- https://www.thepathamedicinejourney.com/Insta- https://www.instagram.com/rnngwlfYouTube- https://www.youtube.com/@rnngwlf✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXhWant to work with Blue?Book your 1:1 session now- https://blueflower.love/Follow Blue on Insta- https://instagram.com/blue.flower.loveFacebook- https://www.facebook.com/blueflowerofficial

Are you confusing forgiveness with allowing someone to keep hurting you? In this episode, Blue welcomes back Loralin Engel to dive deep into the complexities of childhood, strict parenting, and the ultimate lesson of forgiveness. Loralin shares her experience growing up in a military household and later navigating a relationship with a narcissistic mother who she felt she had to "endure" for decades. We explore the transformative moment in 2019 when a string of personal tragedies—from a house fire to the loss of a close friend—led Loralin to a massive emotional explosion and, eventually, a profound spiritual awakening. This conversation is a roadmap for anyone struggling to separate forgiveness from reconciliation and learning how to trust the "fleeting thoughts" of their highest self. We explore: • The Military Upbringing: Moving from the Philippines to the U.S. • Escaping Suffocation: Why Laurel ran away at age 18 to escape strict authority and the belittling of her friends. • Enduring the Narcissist: Recognizing the cycle of guilt, pity-seeking, and emotional drainage from a self-centered parent. • The Forgiveness Breakthrough: Why choosing to forgive the situation is a soul agreement that doesn't require maintaining a relationship. • Identifying the difference between the ego’s repetitive stories and the higher self’s quiet, single-sentence guidance. Support the Podcast & Save $$ Use Code BLUE & Save 15% 🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool Clothing 🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUEYou don't have to heal alone. 💥Join the Deep Blue Wave Community Now! https://blueflower.love/deepbluewavecommunity🌐 Follow Loralin: https://www.loralinengel.com/YouTube-https://www.youtube.com/@loralinengelTikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@mandalapainterFollow on Facebook- https://www.facebook.com/groups/505181006485344🌐 Follow Blue- TikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love Instagram- https://instagram.com/blue.flower.love Website- https://blueflower.love✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXhWant to work with Blue? Book your 1:1 session now- https://blueflower.love/

Tired of feeling stuck in cycles of anger and anxiety?Intuitive healer and telekinesis explorer Anna Zahn joins Blue to reveal a shocking truth: practicing telekinesis isn't just about moving matter—it's one of the fastest ways to master your mind and regulate your nervous system. In this episode, Anna explains how she used "the intuitive playground" to move beyond chronic pain and fibromyalgia.We dive into the science of Psi abilities and why sitting with a piece of tin foil might be the most effective meditative practice you've ever tried. We explore: •Why telekinesis is the ultimate "tangible" feedback loop for meditation •How practicing with the "Egely Wheel" measures your internal life force •The connection between full-body bliss, Kundalini energy, and moving matter •How "play" and "experimentation" allow you to bypass years of restrictive belief systems •The real-world impact: Using telekinesis to find patience and regulation in everyday chaos Support the Podcast & Save $$ 🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool Clothing Use Code BLUE & Save 15%🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUEYou don't have to heal alone. 💥Join the Deep Blue Wave Community Now! https://blueflower.love/deepbluewavecommunity🌐 Follow Anna- TikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@thewildauraInstagram- https://www.instagram.com/the.wild.aura✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXhWant to work with Blue? Book your 1:1 session now- https://blueflower.love/Follow Blue on Insta- https://instagram.com/blue.flower.love

Tired of feeling stuck in cycles of anger and anxiety? Spiritual teacher and trauma expert Marcus Gregory Richardson reveals the raw truth about how generational trauma "programs" the brain for violence, and the spiritual framework needed to deconstruct the ego and heal the inner child.Marcus is a leading voice in the integration of psychology, biology, and spirituality. After surviving a harrowing childhood of neglect and extreme physical abuse, Marcus transformed his life into a mission of teaching others how to regulate their nervous systems and reclaim their authentic selves. We explore: •Why your "personality" is often just a trauma-driven program •How childhood abuse causes literal brain damage and chronic inflammation •The "Matrix" moment: How out-of-body experiences reveal our true nature •Why "thinking" and "believing" are the biggest barriers to spiritual knowing •The truth about "Fate" and why letting go of control is the ultimate power moveSupport the Podcast & Save $$Use Code BLUE & Save 15%🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool Clothing🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUEYou don't have to heal alone. 💥Join the Deep Blue Wave Community Now!https://blueflower.love/deepbluewavecommunity🌐 Follow Marcus- LinkTree- https://linktr.ee/marcusgregoryrichardsonTikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@marcusgregoryrichardsonInstagram- https://www.instagram.com/marcusgregoryrichardson/Facebook-https://www.facebook.com/MarcusGregoryRichardson77✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXhWant to work with Blue?Book your 1:1 session now- https://blueflower.love/Follow Blue on Insta- https://instagram.com/blue.flower.love

The holidays don’t just bring celebration — they bring family dynamics.On this episode, Blue leads a grounded, practical conversation about navigating in-law relationships during the holiday season.Rather than focusing on blame or avoidance, Blue explores why in-law dynamics are often so activating, how childhood conditioning resurfaces in family environments, and what it actually takes to move through these situations with clarity, compassion, and self-respect.This episode covers:🔵Why partners often regress emotionally around their families🔵How childhood nervous system patterns resurface during holidays🔵The importance of entering family gatherings with awareness and compassion🔵Creating clear time boundaries around arrivals and departures🔵The difference between healthy boundary-setting and avoidance🔵How in-law triggers often reflect deeper personal healing work🔵Nervous system regulation, fight-or-flight responses, and emotional capacityThis conversation reframes in-law stress as an opportunity for growth, communication, and nervous system awareness — without bypassing the reality of how difficult these relationships can be.✨ Subscribe for more deep, real conversations on awakening, healing, and spiritual discovery.Support the Podcast & Save🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool ClothingUse Code BLUE & Save 15%🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUE✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXhWant to work with Blue?Book your 1:1 session now- https://blueflower.love/Follow Blue on Insta- https://instagram.com/blue.flower.love

“I never thought I’d do this — but once I said yes, everything changed.”In this episode of The Deep Blue, Charlotte shares her raw and powerful journey of stepping into mediumship. Growing up in a family of psychics and spiritualists, she was surrounded by belief but struggled with confidence, self-trust, and people-pleasing. That all shifted once she started going live on TikTok and she hasn't looked back since.She opens up about:🌱 Growing up with a psychic grandmother and a spiritually connected family.💔 Navigating self-doubt, trauma, and the fear of not being “enough.”✨ The moment she stepped into her gift.🌊 Healing as she worked — and why her awakening didn’t look like everyone else’s.🪞 Setting boundaries, people-pleasing, and learning to protect her peace.💡 How she experiences spirit, symbolism, and the “click” of connection.💜 Finding freedom, balance, and self-love through her spiritual work.Charlotte’s story is a beautiful reminder that healing and awakening don’t have to be perfect, and that sometimes the only way forward is to say yes and trust yourself.✨ Subscribe for more deep, real conversations on awakening, healing, and spiritual discovery.🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool ClothingUse Code BLUE & Save 15%🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUE✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live on TikTok every Friday night- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXh🌐 Follow Charlotte- https://linktr.ee/CharlunnpsychicmediumTikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@charlotterichard1💠Follow Blue FlowerTikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.loveInstagram- https://www.instagram.com/blue.flower.love/

What happens when childhood trauma and family pain become the doorway to hidden spiritual gifts?In this episode of The Deep Blue, April shares her powerful awakening story — from growing up in a turbulent home and experiencing paranormal activity, to discovering her mediumship abilities and learning to set boundaries that changed everything.She opens up about the pivotal moment of confronting family cycles, how spirits began to show up in undeniable ways, and what it means to step into mediumship as both a calling and a healing journey. With stories ranging from haunted houses to heartfelt messages from loved ones on the other side, April’s path is raw, emotional, and deeply inspiring.✨ In this episode, we explore:💠Childhood trauma and sensitivity to spirit💠Paranormal experiences, including haunted homes and family heirlooms💠The power of boundaries in breaking generational cycles💠Discovering and trusting her mediumship abilities💠Messages from loved ones, including her nephew and father💠Healing through connection with spirit and self-truthIf you’ve ever wondered how trauma and intuition intertwine, or how mediumship can transform fear into freedom, April’s story will resonate deeply.✨ Subscribe for more deep, real conversations on awakening, healing, and spiritual discovery.🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool ClothingUse Code BLUE & Save 15%🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUE✨Join us Live on TikTok every Friday night- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXh🌐 Follow April- https://linktr.ee/psychicseeraprilHer Website- https://psychicseerapril.com/TikTok- https://tiktok.com/@psychicseeraprilFacebook-https://www.facebook.com/PsychicSeerApril01?mibextid=LQQJ4d💠Follow Blue FlowerTikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.loveInstagram- https://www.instagram.com/blue.flower.love/

What happens when life breaks you open — and instead of staying broken, you heal?In this episode of The Deep Blue, Joseph of Magick for Modern Life shares his personal journey through trauma, survival, and transformation. From early intuition and life-changing synchronicities to moving countries, reprogramming self-beliefs, and reframing discipline as self-love, his story reveals how healing becomes awakening when we choose to live awake.Together we explore how trauma can sharpen intuition, how signs from the universe guide us when we’re ready, and how daily practices of self-love and trust transform everything.In this episode, we explore:💠Early intuition & spiritual shifts💠The universe speaking through signs and synchronicities💠Trauma, survival, and tuning into intuition💠Healing without becoming trapped in identity💠Reprogramming the mind with self-love💠Discipline reframed as a gift💠Tarot, daily practices, and integration💠Permission to live with joy and wholenessIf you’ve ever wondered how to move from brokenness to renewal, Joseph’s story offers living proof of what’s possible when we trust spirit and choose self-love.✨ Subscribe for more deep, real conversations on awakening, healing, and spiritual discovery.🧥 Woolly Clothing - High-Quality Merino Wool ClothingUse Code BLUE & Save 15%🔗 Shop Here → https://www.woolly.clothing/BLUE✨ New episodes weekly — streamed live Fridays on TikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.love📺 Watch the full podcast archive here on YouTube- https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLb1_11iLrXkK24Hof5MtQ_oH02wN4QLXh🌐 Follow Joseph- https://www.magickformodernlife.com/TikTok-https://www.tiktok.com/@magickformodernlifeYouTube- https://youtube.com/@magickformodernlife4717?si=NVC_0_mWRkn-Fus2Instagram- https://instagram.com/magickformodernlifeCheck out his podcast- https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/magick-for-modern-life/id1476926210💠Follow Blue FlowerTikTok- https://www.tiktok.com/@blue.flower.loveInstagram- https://www.instagram.com/blue.flower.love/