The Deep by Zoe Marshall

As a 12 year old, Ruth loved to chat with her friends online but it wasn't long before a predator found and groomed her. This very quickly became a real life, sexually abusive relationship between a child and a full grown adult paedophile. We have spoken to a few chid abuse victims on this podcast but Ruth's memory of this time is so clear that we get a real insight into what 12 year old her was thinking and experiencing. I think it's so important for parents to hear this story to understand how it happens.Content warning: this episode focusses very heavily on child sexual abuse and drug abuse.Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800.Blue Knot Foundation for female adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1300 657380 or www.blueknot.org.auFor free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @ariise___ and @whatsthedeeper or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

The Port Arthur massacre. It's common knowledge in the minds of Australians but it's not often we hear the story of a family who lived through this first hand. Sue's mother was shot and killed during the massacre and her whole family feels the effects of it, even today.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @ariise___ and @whatsthedeeper or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

If you haven't heard of cuckolds, they are people who enjoy seeing their partner get intimate with someone else. Today we speak to Ciren whose husband is one such person. He'll even jump on the security camera to catch a glimpse. And this is what gets him off. Content warning: this episode sexually explicit.Follow Ciren:IG is @cirenv_2Twitter/X @Cirenv_2Onlyfans @cirenvManyvids Ciren Verde Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @ariise___ and @whatsthedeeper or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Steve was happily married with his wife and two young kids. But he was also living a lie. You see, Steve is gay. And he tried to suppress it for a long time but eventually the truth came out. We explore how Steve was able to mask this for so long and perform with women, how he discovered his sexuality and how he broke the news to his wife and kids.Follow Steve on Instagram @______steve88Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @ariise___ and @whatsthedeeper or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Imagine being able to remember every moment of your life. Even when you were a baby. Today's guest Rebecca has a condition called HSAM, Highly Superior Autobiographical Memory. She can re-live the best moments of her life, like blowing out the candles on her childhood birthday cakes but also the bad memories, which can feel like they are raw and real. This is such a fascinating chat with someone who experiences memory and time differently to most of us. Enjoy. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @ariise___ and @whatsthedeeper or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Today we discuss all things BDSM. Everything you wanted to know about the kinky stuff others get up to in their bedrooms and how beginners can dabble in BDSM to spice up your life.Content warning: This episode is very sexually explicit.Follow Cindra on Instagram @cindrabanksJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @ariise___ and @whatsthedeeper or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Ethan went from failing university to now touring some of the biggest names in self development like Gary Vee, and he's only 29. This is an incredible story about coming back from failure to create the life of your dreams. And if you have a child in this situation, how you can help them turn it around too.Follow Ethan on Instagram @ethan.donatiJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @ariise___ and @whatsthedeeper or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Since we often discuss trauma and loss on this podcast, I really wanted to spend some time unpacking grief in a helpful way. Sal and Im from the Good Mourning podcast are joining me today to chat through some helpful ways to process grief, including loss of a parent, loss of a child, and how different cultures handle grief.Check out the Good Mourning Podcast podcasts.apple.com/au/podcast/good-mourning/id1529978129 and find them on Instagram @goodmourningpodcastJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Danielle is a paediatric intensive care nurse. That means she cares for children and their families at their worst point. Children who are sick, children who are abused, children who are dying. I think anyone who's able to take on this role deserves a medal. Danielle has seen the worst things children go through and still gets up every day to do it again.Content warning: This episode discusses child abuse and child sexual abuse. Support resources are linked below.Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800.Act For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.actforkids.com.auBlue Knot Foundation for female adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1300 657380 or www.blueknot.org.auSamsn for male adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1800 472676 or www.support@samsn.org.auJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

This is part 2 of my interview with Collier - who lost everything when his father murdered his mother. Today we discuss what it's like to grow up with everyone knowing your sad story and what happens when he confronts his father in prison.Content warning: This episode discusses domestic violence including murder. For assistance please contact 1800RESPECT the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling service.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Glen grew up on the streets of Sydney. What he has survived is absolutely incredible, homelessness, drug addiction, crime and the absurdity of our judicial system. He's lived through the worst aspects of humanity and has wise words for the rest of us.Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse and addiction. Resources are linked below.For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.Samsn for male adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1800 472676 or www.support@samsn.org.auBlue Knot Foundation for female adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1300 657380 or www.blueknot.org.auJoin the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

This is such a special episode. Comedian, media personality, and fellow podcaster Meshel Laurie joins me and we get real deep into her personal life. From her relationship with her father to how she deals with trauma to raising her kids. You probably haven't seen this side of Meshel and I'm so glad she shared it with me. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Last week we spoke to Elliott. It was actually his wife who reached out to us about his story and I feel it's really important to share both sides of this one. Tamara shares what it has been like living with a gambling addict for so long, hoping things would change.Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicTash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth Digital - Digital Strategic PartnerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.