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28 | Why You Feel Behind in Life After Narcissistic Abuse
Jun 18, 2026
21m 36s
27 | Why Healing Doesn't Feel the Way You Expected
Jun 11, 2026
15m 55s
26 | The 'Was it really that bad?" Thought Spiral..
Jun 4, 2026
11m 56s
25 | Dating as a Practice Ground for Self-Trust
May 28, 2026
15m 23s
24 | The “Oh Hell No” Phase of Healing: When All You See are Red Flags
May 21, 2026
17m 41s
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| Date | Episode | Topics | Guests | Brands | Places | Keywords | Sponsor | Length | |
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| 6/18/26 | ![]() 28 | Why You Feel Behind in Life After Narcissistic Abuse | Do you ever look around and feel like everyone else got the life you were supposed to have? The stable relationship. The career. The home. The confidence. The clear direction. Meanwhile, you're trying to rebuild after emotional abuse, betrayal, divorce, coercive control, or years spent surviving instead of thriving. In this episode of The Messy Middle, Erica explores the painful belief that you're somehow "behind" in life, and why that feeling is so common for survivors of narcissistic and em... | 21m 36s | ||||||
| 6/11/26 | ![]() 27 | Why Healing Doesn't Feel the Way You Expected✨ | healingnarcissistic abuse+5 | — | — | — | healingnarcissistic abuse+6 | — | 15m 55s | |
| 6/4/26 | ![]() 26 | The 'Was it really that bad?" Thought Spiral..✨ | narcissistic abusecoercive control+3 | — | — | — | narcissistic abusecoercive control+4 | — | 11m 56s | |
| 5/28/26 | ![]() 25 | Dating as a Practice Ground for Self-Trust✨ | datingself-trust+4 | — | — | — | datingself-trust+7 | — | 15m 23s | |
| 5/21/26 | ![]() 24 | The “Oh Hell No” Phase of Healing: When All You See are Red Flags✨ | narcissistic abusecoercive control+4 | — | — | — | narcissistic abusered flags+5 | — | 17m 41s | |
| 5/14/26 | ![]() 23 | Dating After Abuse: Slower, Safer Sparks✨ | datingabuse recovery+3 | — | — | — | dating after abusenarcissistic abuse+3 | — | 15m 53s | |
| 5/7/26 | ![]() 22 | Financial Fear After Narcissistic Abuse: What Nobody Talks About✨ | financial fearnarcissistic abuse+3 | — | — | — | financial fearnarcissistic abuse+3 | — | 17m 44s | |
| 4/23/26 | ![]() 21 | The Quiet Grief of "Wasted Years"✨ | griefrelationships+3 | — | — | — | wasted yearsquiet grief+4 | — | 20m 30s | |
| 3/26/26 | ![]() 20 | Rebuilding Self-Trust After Manipulation & Abuse✨ | self-trustmanipulation+4 | — | — | — | self-trustmanipulation+4 | — | 18m 42s | |
| 3/19/26 | ![]() 19 | Why You´ll Lose Your Friends After Leaving High-Control Relationship✨ | high-control relationshipsfriendship loss+3 | — | — | — | high-control relationshipfriendship+3 | — | 22m 44s | |
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| 3/12/26 | ![]() 18 | "I'll Never Need Anyone Again" Hyper Independence Phase✨ | hyper independencecoercive control+4 | — | — | — | hyper independencecoercive control+5 | — | 24m 15s | |
| 3/5/26 | ![]() 17 | Why Peace Feels Boring After Narcissistic Abuse✨ | narcissistic abuseemotional healing+3 | — | — | — | narcissistic abusepeace+5 | — | 17m 34s | |
| 2/26/26 | ![]() 16 | Who Am I Without Him? Journey Back to Yourself✨ | identity lossnarcissistic abuse+3 | — | — | — | narcissistic abuseidentity+3 | — | 23m 24s | |
| 2/12/26 | ![]() 15 | When Doctors Dismiss You: Medical Gaslighting Explained✨ | medical gaslightingemotional abuse+4 | — | — | — | gaslightingmedical system+5 | — | 18m 18s | |
| 1/29/26 | ![]() 14 | You Were Never Crazy - Your Body Always Knew the Truth✨ | body awarenessinner child work+3 | — | childhood toyThe Messy Middle | — | body truthinner child+3 | — | 17m 45s | |
| 1/15/26 | ![]() 13 | You Don't Have to Forgive Your Abuser to Heal✨ | healingabuse+3 | — | Inner Child ep | — | forgivenessabuser+3 | — | 20m 22s | |
| 1/8/26 | ![]() 12 | Abuse Dynamics Education: Power and Control✨ | abuse dynamicsemotional abuse+4 | — | — | — | abuse dynamicsemotional abuse+5 | — | 27m 57s | |
| 1/1/26 | ![]() 11 | Somatics & Energetics: Why You Can’t Logic Your Way Out of Trauma | If you’ve ever wondered why boundaries feel impossible, why you keep going back, or why your body reacts before your mind can catch up, I made this episode for you. If you’ve done the therapy, read the books, understand the patterns of abuse, manipulation, or people pleasing, and yet your body still freezes, fawns, shuts down, or betrays you at the exact moment you need it most, this episode is for you. This is a deep dive into somatics and energetics, and why trauma doesn’t live in your thou... | 27m 28s | ||||||
| 12/25/25 | ![]() 10 | Boundaries That Work After Abuse: From Body to Self | Let’s talk about boundaries. The real kind. Not the affirmations you repeat in the mirror and then immediately override when someone pushes. I mean lived boundaries. The ones you feel in your body before they ever become words. In this episode of The Messy Middle, I’m unpacking why boundaries feel so uncomfortable, scary, and even dangerous for so many of us, especially if you grew up without them, were punished for having them, or survived narcissistic abuse, coercive control, high-conflict ... | 22m 05s | ||||||
| 12/18/25 | ![]() 09 | Intuition: Reclaiming Your Inner Knowing After Narcissistic Abuse | In this episode of The Messy Middle, I’m diving into intuition and why so many of us learned not to trust it, fear it, or shut it down completely. If you’ve experienced emotional abuse, gaslighting, narcissistic relationships, chronic people-pleasing, or high-control dynamics, there’s a good chance your intuition wasn’t just ignored, it was actively dismissed, minimized, or punished. Over time, that teaches you to second-guess your own knowing and disconnect from your body altogether. I talk ... | 26m 07s | ||||||
| 12/11/25 | ![]() 08 | Toxic Cycle-Breaking: From Generational Hurt to Generational Healing | This episode is personal. It’s a little dark, a little tender, and honestly one of the more vulnerable things I have put 'out there'. TRIGGER WARNING - In this episode, I talk about domestic violence, abuse, trauma, and the ripple effects of generational harm. If you need to skip this one to protect your nervous system, I fully support that. Thirty years ago, my dad died. Not the stepdad who raised me for most of my life, but my biological father, whose story is woven with violence, pat... | 32m 11s | ||||||
| 12/4/25 | ![]() 07 | Exposing the Inner Critic: A Healing Dialogue | If you’ve ever heard that vicious little voice in your head whispering things like you’re not smart enough, you always mess everything up, everyone’s laughing at you, this episode is going to hit home in the best possible way. Because that voice? It isn’t you. And today, we’re ripping the mask right off it. In this raw, intimate episode of The Messy Middle, I’m taking you back to the moment I finally realized my inner critic wasn’t my voice at all. It was training. Conditioning. A survival st... | 24m 58s | ||||||
| 11/27/25 | ![]() 06 | Inner Child Awakening: The Unfu*kwithable Path | In this raw and unfiltered episode of The Messy Middle, I’m pulling back the curtain on one of the most defining moments of my healing journey and why Inner Child Work became Key One in my Six Keys to Unfu*kwithable. I’m talking about the truth-telling, throat-tightening, survival-trained younger me. The part of me who learned early to shrink, perform, stay quiet, and swallow every truth just to stay safe. I share the deeply personal story of sitting in couples therapy with someone who ... | 21m 38s | ||||||
| 11/20/25 | ![]() 05 | Will This Always Happen to Me? Narcissistic Relationship Patterns | In this episode of The Messy Middle, I’m diving into the question I get asked with equal parts fear, dread, and heartbreak: Will this always happen to me? If you’ve ever whispered that to yourself after surviving narcissistic or high-control dynamics, you’re not alone. And no, you’re not cursed, broken, or doomed to attract the same person in a different body for the rest of your life. What you are is a human being who learned survival in a world that normalizes manipulation, misogyny, and em... | 27m 28s | ||||||
| 11/18/25 | ![]() 04 | Why Did I Stay So Long in Toxic Relationships? | If you’ve ever asked yourself, “Why did I stay so long?” after an abusive or controlling relationship — this one’s for you. In this raw, unfiltered episode, we break down the real reasons survivors stay — and spoiler alert: it’s not because you’re weak, naïve, or broken. It’s because your nervous system, your hope, your history, and a masterclass in manipulation were all working against you. We unpack the shame hidden in that question, the biochemical addiction of intermittent affection, and ... | 25m 15s | ||||||
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