The Road Less Traveled

November was one hell of a month and I'm not going to lie, I'm very glad it is over. I hope everyone had a great holiday period. Mine was mostly full of stress and minor hardships to be honest. I am incredibly proud to share with everyone that I did finish my writing goal/contest of typing 50,000 words for www.reedsy.com and will be able to submit my rough draft of a book for agent consideration. It wasn't even close to easy given all the unexpected challenges I faced. At a certain point though, it went from "I can do this" to "I will do this." Possibly a small distinction, but it is an incredibly important one. Thanks again for listening everyone. Tune in next week!

This section of my impromptu and scattered biography covers ages 15 1/2 to 20. Yes, you read that correctly. I've been focused on preproduction for a short film that I wrote and want to direct, so I apologize that this one is a few days late and also ill prepared... even by audio diary standards. I do recognize within the episode that a lot of my coping skills to traumatic events is to either ignore them, distance myself, or insulate myself by throwing myself into a project or distraction. It's one of the main reasons I believe I have trauma and anxiety now that I'm trying to deal with. To be fair, I'm not saying how I handled things was wrong since I was a child and then a teenager, but it doesn't exactly resolve the issue by forgiving myself, which is the main point behind this podcast. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. - db

I apologize in advance that the middle portion turns into politics, but this is more of a state of affairs episode in the sense that I was catching up with a friend from prison and we couldn't understand the direction of things. This podcast is entirely for me trying to understand my situation having been in prison and the long term mental and physical affects it's had on me. My friend and I caught up and it had me taking stock of things. Hope if you're out there and you're listening that you're doing well, whoever you may be. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. -db

A continuation of my autobiography covering ages 10-16. They were pretty rough years unfortunately, and I've been dealing with a lot of that trauma ever since. It's hard to get closure on family deaths when you lose them at a young age. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. - db [Note: The plug to my mic wasn't all the way in so it sounds like it gave the recording a hollow sound. I didn't realize until literally the very end. Doh.]

I'm finally getting around to the biography portion of this now-not-anonymous podcast. It started as an audio diary to help me cope and attempt to move forward after spending over five years in prison. I blacked out at home and woke up at the scene of an accident I had caused that claimed the life of an innocent person. Nothing said in this podcast/diary is an excuse or an attempt to garner sympathy. I'm still trying to this day to understand the difference between the good person that I was/am, with the person that did something so terrible. This was done entirely anonymously from the beginning up until now but has never been hidden. I've Googled myself. It's out there. My biggest hope is that if you're listening or happen to stumble upon this, there may be something in here that allows you to better yourself or avoid any mistakes I've made. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. - db P.S. Sorry about the political views in the middle, but it does relate to how/where/by whom I was raised. Myrna was a beautiful and kind Canadian immigrant who I had the great fortune to be adopted by. Most parents get their kids by genetic lottery; a lucky few are chosen.