recovered-ish with chloe cox

Episode Description It feels strange to say, but it's true: my eating disorder taught me things that have actually added to my life. Not the behaviors. Not the rules. But real, paradoxical lessons that I've carried with me into recovery and into the rest of my life. In this episode I'm sharing a casual list of the unexpected things I learned through my eating disorder — about my body, about planning, about self-compassion, about the power of my own brain. These lessons go way beyond food and ...

Episode Description Travel is one of the hardest things you can do in eating disorder recovery. New foods, broken routines, different meal times, swimsuits, pictures — it's a lot. And nobody really talks about how to actually get through it. In this episode I'm sharing my honest survival guide for traveling in ED recovery — from what it looked like when I was deep in my disorder on a family trip to Hawaii, to what it looked like this past month traveling to New York and Maryland fully recover...

Episode Description Short answer: yes. Long answer: it's complicated, it takes time, and it definitely doesn't happen the way most people think it does. In this episode I'm getting into my own journey from restriction, to meal plan, to eventually finding something that actually feels like food freedom — and what every stage of that actually looked like. Including the messy middle, the slips, and the moments I started to actually trust my body again. Inspired by a comment questioning why I sti...

Back by popular demand — we're back in the journals. In this episode I'm reading more entries from my eating disorder treatment diaries. These are unfiltered, verbatim entries from residential, PHP, and IOP — the rawest, most honest documentation of what recovery actually looked like from the inside. This one goes to some dark places. There are entries about missing the disorder, about feeling like recovery wasn't worth it, about a muffin that sent me into a complete spiral. But there are als...

One of the most common questions I get — from clients, from my own lived experience, from people who have spent years wondering — is this: why me? Why did I get an eating disorder when the people around me didn't? In this episode I'm getting into the real answer. Not the oversimplified version. The actual, nuanced, deeply personal answer — using my own story, my clinical experience, and the framework I use with clients in my group program The Quasi-Recovery Exit to help people understand them...

Honest confession: my body image has been pretty rough lately. And yes, I know — I'm a recovered eating disorder therapist who just last week talked about how quiet my ED voice has gotten. So what gives? In this episode I'm getting real about what bad body image actually looks like for me now, 11 years into recovery. How it's different from the eating disorder voice. What body dysmorphia really feels like from the inside. And the specific things that actually help me move through it — not the...

hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about the part of recovery that i think catches a lot of people off guard: how long it takes. how messy it is. and how discouraging it can feel when you’re doing “everything right” and still not feeling better yet. because i think a lot of people go into recovery expecting it to feel hard for a little while… and then eventually click into place. and when that doesn’t happen, it’s really easy to spiral into: ...

hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. today’s episode is a little different. i was feeling kind of chaotic, kind of scattered, and i knew i did not have it in me to do justice to one of the bigger, heavier topics i had planned. so instead, i did something i honestly never thought i would do. i pulled out my old journals. the actual journals i kept from the depths of my eating disorder through therapy, residential treatment, php, iop, and early recovery. five full books of wild...

hello, lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. today we’re talking about quasi recovery. this is the phase where you’re not relapsed. you’re functioning. you’re eating. life looks mostly normal. but the tape is still running. in this episode, i talk about: – what quasi recovery actually is (and how it’s different from relapse) – the “good enough” space that can last for years – rigidity that hides inside normal routines – the identity piece that keeps people stuck &nb...

hi, my lovely friends. welcome back to recovered-ish. this week’s episode is messy. i’m congested. there’s construction beeping outside my office. it’s a full comedy of errors. but honestly… that feels fitting. recovery is messy too. i did a poll on instagram and you all had so many good questions that i couldn’t pick just one. so we’re doing a recovery buffet. a little bit of this, a little bit of that. not a deep dive feast. just honest, off-the-cuff answers. in this episode, we talk about:...

today we’re covering one of the most confusing and emotionally loaded topics in eating disorder recovery: exercise. because movement can genuinely help anxiety. and it can also quietly become another way the eating disorder stays in control. in this episode, we talk about the role exercise plays in eating disorders, why stopping movement can feel terrifying, and how to tell the difference between moving to feel connected vs moving to control your body. i also share my personal relationship wi...

in this episode, we’re talking about the fear of weight gain — and why you can’t just “get over it.” if you’ve ever thought i want recovery, but i can’t handle my body changing, this episode is for you. we unpack why weight gain can feel like danger (not just discomfort), how avoidance wires fear, and why waiting to feel “okay” before taking action keeps people stuck for years. i also want to name this clearly: i recovered into a smaller body, and that comes with privilege. my experience is n...

welcome to the first episode of recovered-ish. in this episode, i share why i started this podcast, what recovered-ish actually means, and why the idea of “full recovery” isn’t as clear-cut as we’re often told. i’m 30 years old, over a decade into eating disorder recovery, and both a therapist and recovery coach. if you asked me today whether i’m fully recovered, my answer wouldn’t be a simple yes or no — and that nuance is exactly what this episode explores. this conversation focuses on the ...