
WTF is on my Mind?!
by Mark Vicente
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Bottling Up Rage: Why People Pleasing Ends Badly w/ Nick Pollard
Oct 18, 2026
1h 14m 56s
Failing the Test Is Passing the Test: The Moment I Chose My Wife Over NXIVM
Oct 4, 2026
14m 53s
The Algorithm Wants us to Hate
Sep 20, 2026
24m 06s
Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 14 - The Cult Assassin
Sep 13, 2026
1h 14m 46s
Narcissism: When the Ego Goes Insane
Aug 30, 2026
20m 16s
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| Date | Episode | Topics | Guests | Brands | Places | Keywords | Sponsor | Length | |
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| 10/18/26 | Bottling Up Rage: Why People Pleasing Ends Badly w/ Nick Pollard | I found Nick Pollard, known online as 'The People Displeaser,' through his Instagram reels, and three days later we were recording this conversation. Nick is a coach and recovering people pleaser who survived a brutal childhood, three divorces, and an addiction that nearly killed him. He came out the other side with ideas that a lot of people find hard to hear. We talk about how people-pleasing quietly turns into resentment, why he calls it "little bottles of rage," and why the explosion alm... | 1h 14m 56s | ||||||
| 10/4/26 | Failing the Test Is Passing the Test: The Moment I Chose My Wife Over NXIVM | This one is personal. When I was waking up from NXIVM, Raniere and the people around him were turning on my wife Bonnie and trying to destroy our marriage. At one point she asked me where she stood in all of it. I checked in with myself, deeply, and I gave her my answer. The cult saw that answer as weakness. Last week in New York, someone asked me about that moment on a podcast, and it brought back something I had completely forgotten. In the 90s I read a book called "The Nine Faces of Chri... | 14m 53s | ||||||
| 9/20/26 | The Algorithm Wants us to Hate | You're sure you know who the enemy is. You've seen the evidence. You've read the comments. But what if the fight itself is the product? In NXIVM, Raniere kept us busy fighting each other so none of us looked up at what he was doing. I'm watching the same pattern play out on a massive scale, and most people are too inflamed to notice. So I want to ask you a question I think very few people are asking right now: who benefits when you hate the other side? And if the answer makes you uncomforta... | 24m 06s | ||||||
| 9/13/26 | Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 14 - The Cult Assassin | For thirteen episodes, you've heard from the people Bentinho Massaro did this to. This episode is different. Carol Merchasin isn't a survivor, she's a lawyer, and some people call her 'The Cult Assassin.' If this conversation resonates, watch my documentary on narcissistic abuse, 'Narcissist's Playbook: Empathy Not Included' www.narcissistsplaybook.com Carol Merchasin is an attorney and advocate on coercive control and high-demand groups, and the founder of a litigation practice devot... | 1h 14m 46s | ||||||
| 8/30/26 | narcissismego+4 | — | What the Bleep Do We Know?!Narcissism, Cults, and Dark Psychology+1 | — | narcissismego+5 | — | 20m 16s | ||
| 8/23/26 | spiritualityhigh-control dynamics+3 | Jacqueline GrahamKeilan McNeil+1 | — | — | Bentinho Massarospiritual influencer+3 | — | 1h 37m 48s | ||
| 8/9/26 | narcissismdissociation+3 | Dr. Heather Berlin | — | — | narcissismdissociation+3 | — | 1h 02m 03s | ||
| 8/2/26 | narcissistic abuserecovery+4 | Dr. Ramani Durvasula | Narcissist's Playbook | — | narcissistic abuserecovery+6 | — | 1h 13m 12s | ||
| 7/12/26 | narcissismpsychology+4 | Dr. Jamie Zuckerman | NXIVMdrjaimezuckerman.com+1 | — | narcissismpsychology+6 | — | 58m 07s | ||
| 6/28/26 | spiritualityinfluence+3 | Jade Alectra | — | — | Bentinho MassaroJade Alectra+3 | — | 1h 00m 54s | ||
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| 6/21/26 | spiritualityhealing+3 | Silvana | Gaia | — | SilvanaBentinho Massaro+6 | — | 1h 11m 40s | ||
| 6/14/26 | spiritualitytext messages+3 | Keilan McNeil | — | — | Bentinho MassaroKeilan McNeil+4 | — | 1h 02m 10s | ||
| 6/7/26 | text messagespersonal experiences+3 | Jacqueline Graham | — | — | Bentinho Massarotext messages+3 | — | 1h 27m 25s | ||
| 5/31/26 | abusenarcissism+3 | Evan Rachel Wood | Narcissist's Playbook | — | Evan Rachel Woodnarcissistic abuse+3 | — | 1h 22m 15s | ||
| 5/24/26 | Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 8 - Aaron Abke "Behind the Mask" | One of the recurring defenses from people still inside Bentinho Massaro's circle is that the people who have spoken out, Jacqueline, Keilan, and Jade, simply didn't understand the Law of One teachings. That they weren't advanced enough. That if they had truly grasped what was being offered, they would have seen things differently. So we spoke to someone who knows the teachings well. Aaron Abke grew up as a pastor's son, earned a degree in Music and Theology, spent a year as a full-time wors... | 1h 43m 31s | ||||||
| 5/10/26 | Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 7 - Jade Part 2 “Leave Your Body” | We pick up where we left off in Part 1. A kitchen in Ecuador. Two women looking at each other across an island with empty eyes. What follows is five months of Jade Alectra's life across four countries: Panama, Mexico, Costa Rica, the Yucatan - and through experiences that are among the most disturbing in this entire series. In Part Two, Jade describes the second r*pe, a meditation played loud, a voice telling her to leave her body, and the moment she felt she had achieved something when it... | 1h 08m 23s | ||||||
| 5/3/26 | Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 6 - Jade Part 1 "Empty Eyes" | Jade Alectra was a D1 athlete, a yoga teacher with 75,000 followers, a feature in Oprah Magazine, and a meditation practice she had built from scratch. None of that protected her. In this episode, Jade begins the story of how she was recruited into Bentinho Massaro's inner circle - not through his teachings, but through the women around him. What follows is one of the most detailed accounts of pre-grooming, love-bombing, and psychological manipulation in this entire series. It is also the da... | 1h 22m 06s | ||||||
| 4/26/26 | Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 5 - Keilan Part 2 "Closer to God" | This is part of my ongoing deep-dive investigation into the world of Bentinho Massaro - a Dutch spiritual influencer with millions of followers and a story that goes far beyond what's visible on his carefully curated social media. I've been documenting this for over four years. This is Keilan Part Two. In Part One, we watched Keilan McNeil get pulled in. In Part Two, we go inside the machine. This episode covers what life actually looks like inside a high-control group once the honeymoon is... | 1h 12m 57s | ||||||
| 4/19/26 | Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 4 - Ivo van Woerden "The Journalist" | A note before you listen: this episode was recorded before I left for the Netherlands. I just spent seven days there shooting with the Three Amigos, Jacqueline Graham, Keilan McNeil, Jade Alectra and Ivo van Woerden, along with a number of other people who are essential to telling this story. A lot is coming. But first, this. Ivo van Woerden is a Dutch journalist who has spent the better part of five years investigating Bentinho Massaro. He interviewed over 60 people. He was publicly called... | 1h 17m 45s | ||||||
| 4/12/26 | Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 3 - Keilan Part 1 "The Mission" | For over four years I've been documenting the world of Bentinho Massaro - a Dutch spiritual influencer with millions of followers and a very dark story behind the public image. This is my deep dive investigation. We've heard from Jacqueline Graham in Episodes 1 and 2. Now it's time to hear from Keilan McNeil. Keilan's entry point into Bentinho's world is completely different from Jacqueline's. He wasn't a spiritual seeker. He was a twenty-two year old film school dropout, isolated, angry at ... | 1h 06m 26s | ||||||
| 4/5/26 | Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 2 - Jacqueline Part 2 "All In" | In Part One, we met Jacqueline Graham, a Canadian mother of three, a lifelong spiritual seeker, and the woman who would become Bentinho Massaro's girlfriend. We watched her get drawn in: the love bombing, the pedestaling, the first cruelties, the money handed over in Panama. This episode is about what happened after she decided to go all in. "All In" covers the full arc of Jacqueline's time inside: the financial coercion, the manipulation tactics, a letter she was asked to sign at a monaster... | 49m 19s | ||||||
| 3/29/26 | Inst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 1 - Jacqueline Part 1 'The Seeker' | I've seen this before. Not something like this. Not a similar version of this. This. The same playbook. The same psychological architecture. Just a different face. For the video version of this podcast, head over to Youtube. My name is Mark Vicente. I'm a filmmaker and a former member of NXIVM, the cult run by Keith Raniere, who is currently serving 120 years in federal prison. I was one of the whistleblowers who helped bring that organization down. That experience was chronicled in The Vow ... | 57m 22s | ||||||
| 3/15/26 | Corey Feldman's Angels...in HELL - Part 2 | THIS IS PART 2. In Part 1, I sat down with Margot Lane and Mara Moon - two former bandmates of Corey Feldman's Corey's Angels - to hear how they were drawn in: the love bombing, the false promises, the body shaming, and the slow erosion of their boundaries. If you haven't seen Part 1 yet, go there first. Part 2 is where things escalate. On tour, the abuse ramps up: sleep deprivation, no bed, drug use, coerced sexual situations, and a moment of witnessing another woman being abused that... | 45m 10s | ||||||
| 3/8/26 | Corey Feldman's Angels... in HELL - Part 1 | In this first part of a two-part episode, I sit down with Margot Lane and Mara Moon; two former bandmates of Corey Feldman who were part of his group, 'Corey's Angels'. Both women were subjects of the documentary film Corey Feldman vs. The World, directed by Marcie Hume, whom I interviewed in a previous episode. Margot and Mara share how they were each drawn into Feldman's world, lured by promises of a music career, financial stability, and a fresh start, and what they found once they ... | 38m 28s | ||||||
| 3/1/26 | What the Hell Is Going On?! (And What Do We Do Next) w/ Africa Brooke & Mark Vicente | Africa Brooke and I did an Instagram Live right after the Epstein files dropped, and we didn't hold back. Africa is one of my closest friends, one of the most honest thinkers I know, and someone who has never been afraid to ask the questions most people would rather avoid. We talked about evil... why good people struggle to recognize it, why they keep making excuses for it, and what it costs us when we do. We talked about the psychology of narcissists and psychopaths, why they need us more t... | 1h 44m 06s | ||||||
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Chart history for WTF is on my Mind?!
Peaked at #30 in VN, currently #30 in VN.
| Market | Genre | Peak | Current | Trend |
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| VN | — | #30 | #30 | — |
| Norway | — | #68 | #68 | — |
| PE | — | #99 | #99 | — |
| Sweden | — | #100 | #100 | — |
| Australia | — | #107 | #107 | — |
| Netherlands | — | #113 | #113 | — |
| PT | — | #114 | #114 | — |
| United States | — | #151 | #151 | — |
| Canada | — | #153 | #153 | — |
| AT | — | #159 | #159 | — |
| Denmark | — | #179 | #179 | — |
| Italy | — | #190 | #190 | — |
| BE | — | #190 | #190 | — |
| CZ | — | #194 | #194 | — |
Chart Positions
14 placements across 14 markets.
Chart Positions
14 placements across 14 markets.