The Rollercoaster Podcast

Nothing prepares you for the moment you realise the person you love is slowly disappearing, even though they’re still right in front of you.In this episode, I sit down with Lindsay Kelly, a mother of six whose life changed when her husband’s undiagnosed progressive multiple sclerosis began showing up not just in his body, but in his mind. Rage. Memory loss. Personality changes. Doctors who couldn’t explain it. And years of being told it was “just a marriage problem.”Lindsay takes us inside the breaking point, the night she said she was done, the hospital room where everything finally made sense, and the quiet moment at home when she realised she had become a full-time caregiver overnight.This conversation is about invisible illness, caregiver burnout, faith, resilience, and what it really means to stay when walking away would be easier.If you’ve ever felt alone in your marriage, your faith, or your fight, this episode will sit with you.Watch now and share this with someone who needs to feel less alone.Key Moments:0:00 When My Husband Suddenly Wasn’t Himself3:12 The First Sign Something Was Seriously Wrong6:01 Walking On Eggshells Inside Our Own Home9:07 The Moment I Thought About Leaving12:55 Doctors Couldn’t Explain His Rage16:24 The Hospital Call That Changed Everything19:58 “Your Husband Has A Broken Brain”23:41 When MS Explained The Personality Shift27:18 Becoming A Full-Time Caregiver Overnight30:47 The Day I Realised I Was Completely Alone34:26 When Faith Was The Only Thing Left38:02 Two Years Of Crying Every Single Day41:55 What Caregiver Burnout Really Looks Like45:36 Why Assisted Living Saved Our Family49:12 The Reality Of Loving Someone With MS52:58 Why I Started Sharing This Online56:21 The Messages That Proved I Wasn’t Alone59:44 “Alone Doesn’t Have To Mean Lonely”Guest Info:IG: @lewkelly06 (https://www.instagram.com/lewkelly06/)

What do you do when your worst fear comes true… and no one even knows the truth?In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Adriana Sansam, a mother whose life changed forever when her husband died alone in a hotel room from an accidental overdose. One moment he was on a work trip. The next, she was racing for answers, convinced something was wrong before anyone confirmed it.Adriana opens up about loving a recovering addict, hiding his addiction from everyone, and the devastating phone call that left her raising three young children alone. But this isn’t just a story about addiction and grief. It’s about breaking the stigma, telling the truth, and turning shame into purpose.If you’ve been touched by addiction, mental health struggles, loss, or single parenting, this conversation will stay with you.Listen now. Share this with someone who needs it. And subscribe for more stories that change lives.Key Moments:0:00 “I Knew Something Was Wrong”3:12 Married to a Recovering Addict6:05 The Phone Call That Confirmed My Fear9:02 “He’s Dead”, Hearing the Words12:10 Who He Was Beyond the Addiction15:08 Understanding the Mind of an Addict18:04 Explaining His Death to Our 5-Year-Old21:06 When Shame Turned Into Silence24:18 The Message That Changed Everything27:30 Why I Finally Told the Truth30:12 Did He Have a Reason to Keep Going?33:40 When the Past Blocks the Future36:10 “I Don’t Need More, I Need You”39:05 Speaking to Him After His Death42:18 A Message to Fathers Battling Addiction45:30 Watching My Son Look for His DadGuest Info:IG: adrianasansam (https://www.instagram.com/adrianasansam/)

What happens when faith meets unimaginable loss and the miracle doesn’t come the way you prayed for it?In this deeply raw episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Shayna Weston, a woman whose life was shattered by a relentless sequence of grief that few could survive. In the span of a single year, Shayna walked beside her brother as he fought terminal cancer, held onto hope for a miracle, whispered goodbye as he took his final breath, then returned home only to lose her beloved dog… and shortly after, face her father’s devastating stage four pancreatic cancer diagnosis.This conversation isn’t about tidy answers or surface-level faith. It’s about the brutal reality of grief, the anger we feel toward God, the moments we bargain, break, and beg and the quiet, unexpected ways healing and redemption can still emerge.Shayna opens up about caregiving, anticipatory grief, losing multiple loved ones, wrestling with faith, forgiveness, and what it truly means to surrender when control is gone. It’s honest, heartbreaking, and somehow still filled with hope.Watch this episode to understand grief on a deeper level and if you’ve ever lost someone, questioned your faith, or felt crushed by loss, this conversation will remind you that you’re not alone.Key Moments:0:00 The Call That Changed Everything3:14 “You Have One Week Left”6:07 When Hope And Reality Collided9:21 The Moment I Knew He Was Dying12:08 Singing Through Terminal Cancer15:02 Doctors Said It Was Impossible18:36 The Treatment That Shouldn’t Have Worked21:48 When I Began Fighting God24:31 “I’m Scared To Die”27:26 Choosing Faith Over Fear30:19 The Breath That Never Came Back33:08 Watching My Brother Take His Last Breath36:11 Grief Hits In Slow Motion39:04 The Silence That Broke Our Family42:12 Losing My Dog Right After Losing Him45:03 When Grief Turned Into Anger48:29 The Diagnosis That Came Next51:42 Stage Four Pancreatic Cancer54:56 “I Don’t Want To Fight Anymore”58:08 Learning To Let GoGuest Info:IG: @shay_weston_ (https://www.instagram.com/shay_weston_/)

What do you do when the person you love becomes the person you fear most? In today’s episode, I sit down with Lyndsey Hackford, a woman whose story left me shaken, heartbroken, and in absolute awe of her strength.For 18 years, Lyndsey lived inside an abusive marriage that slowly stole her voice, her identity, and nearly her life. What started as subtle manipulation spiraled into control, isolation, physical violence, and moments where she genuinely didn’t know if she would survive the night. Her children witnessed things no child ever should. And yet, Lyndsey found a way out.In this conversation, Lyndsey walks us through the moments that changed everything: the fear, the near-death experiences, the police intervention, the escape, the trial, and the long, painful road to rebuilding her life. If you’ve lived through trauma, domestic abuse, emotional manipulation, or you’re trying to support someone who has, her story will stay with you.Watch this episode to hear Lyndsey’s message of hope, courage, and reclaiming your life, no matter how dark things have been.Key Moments:0:00 “I Hit the Wall So I Wouldn’t Hit Mom”3:00 The “Support” That Was Actually Control6:02 How Her Religion Was Used Against Her9:19 The Moment She Realised Her Worth Was Gone12:00 The Day He Admitted He Wanted to Hit Her14:44 The Shame and Threats That Kept Her Silent17:39 A Year of Sleep Deprivation and Surveillance20:10 “Just Let Me Leave”… and the Violent Response23:06 “Look at That Face, How Could I Love That?”26:00 The Escape Attempt That Finally Worked29:31 The Jury Trial And Her Kids Taking the Stand32:53 Why Abusers All Share the Same Patterns33:23 Her Message to Women Still Living in FearGuest Info:IG: @lyndseyh6723 Facebook: @lyndsey.jackson.125

There are moments in life that split everything into “before” and “after.” And for Ben Longshore, it began with one sentence from his father: “Take care of your mom and sister.” Hours later, he learned there was no pulse.In this raw and deeply human conversation, I sit down with my cousin Ben, someone I’ve known my entire life, as he opens up about the night his dad unexpectedly passed away, the weight of being 16 when everything changed, and the choice to step into a role he never asked for. His story doesn’t end there. Seven years later, another tragedy struck our family, forcing him to face grief all over again and ask the questions no one wants to ask: Why now? How do you keep going? Where is God in all this? This episode is about loss, faith, resilience, family, and the quiet strength you don’t know you have until life demands it. If you’ve walked through grief, felt responsible for others, or wondered how to rebuild after tragedy, this conversation will stay with you.Watch this episode to hear Ben’s powerful journey and be reminded that even in the heaviest moments, hope still has a voice.Key Moments:0:00 The Last Words His Dad Ever Said3:00 The Day That Changed His Life Forever7:04 The Moment He Knew Something Was Wrong12:18 The Night Before Everything Went Wrong17:10 The Prayer That Shifted the Room21:45 Telling His Sister Their Dad Was Gone25:40 How the Community Showed Up Overnight30:12 The Spiritual Perspective That Saved Him35:40 The Father-Son Moments He Still Misses39:54 Dreams, Football, and a Life Rewritten43:02 Why Showing Up Matters More Than Words49:35 The 30-Hour Drive They'll Never Forget51:20 Seven Years Later, Another Tragedy Hits55:24 “Nick Is in the Hospital”: Reliving Old Trauma59:58 The ATV Accident That Changed Everything1:03:49 Praying for a Miracle That Didn’t Come1:07:22 Helping His Sister-in-Law Survive the Impossible1:12:28 The Organ Donor Story No One Expected1:17:08 How That Meeting Changed Their Family Forever1:23:56 How He Leads His Family Differently Now1:28:40 Why “Stepping Up” Matters More Than EverGuest Info:IG: @‌ben.longshore

What happens when the moment that should have destroyed you… becomes the moment God uses to save your life? This episode with Ruslan KD is one of the most intense, emotional, and faith-shifting conversations I’ve ever had.Today, I sit down with Ruslan KD, creator, pastor, rapper, and one of the fastest-growing Christian voices online, to unpack a story that begins in a war-torn country, where a single detail from his childhood literally saved his family from being killed. From fleeing ethnic cleansing in Azerbaijan, surviving abuse, and falling into drugs, crime, and violence in San Diego, Ruslan opens up about the battles that shaped him.We talk about fatherlessness, trauma, identity, masculinity, addiction, and the moment God stepped in and completely rerouted his life. His transformation from chaos to calling is a raw reminder that redemption is real and that God’s ways, even when they feel restrictive, are actually pathways to freedom.If you’ve wrestled with identity, faith, or the pain of your past, this conversation will breathe hope into you. Watch this episode to hear a story you’ll never forget.Key Moments:0:00 The Moment That Saved My Life1:42 Growing Up Armenian in a War Zone4:52 The One Detail That Meant Life or Death7:48 My Family Fell Apart Overnight10:38 How I Slid Into Crime at 1113:22 Gangster Rap Became My Role Model15:52 Running From a Kid With a Knife18:40 We Had to Move or I Wasn’t Going to Make It21:41 Wrestling With Faith, Trauma, and Identity24:45 Why I Finally Surrendered Everything27:28 Breaking Old Habits and Building New Ones30:09 Why God’s Boundaries Lead to Freedom33:14 The Danger of Letting Your Job Define You36:12 The Only Identity That Actually Holds39:16 My Imposter Syndrome While Writing This Book42:40 How to Pursue Success Without Losing Yourself46:01 Why Most People Misunderstand Calling49:02 The Problem With Hustle Culture52:18 What I Wish I Knew at 1655:47 Advice for Kids Growing Up Without a Dad59:01 Why God’s Ways Aren’t “Restrictions”1:02:22 How to Build an Identity That Lasts1:04:14 The Power of Community When You’re Lost1:07:54 The Simple Advice That Saved My LifeGuest Info:IG: @‌ruslankdYouTube: @‌RuslanKD

What do you do when your whole world disappears overnight? When a single phone call changes everything you thought you knew about life, faith, and purpose?In this powerful episode, I sit down with Nathan DeTracy, a former IFBB Pro bodybuilder whose life was forever altered when he lost both parents in a tragic car accident at just 23 years old, only days before 9/11. What followed was a decade-long battle with grief, addiction, and identity, hidden behind a flawless exterior of success and discipline.Nathan shares how he went from broken and lost, drowning in pain and denial, to rebuilding his life through faith, purpose, and service. He opens up about how bodybuilding became both his escape and his armor, and how hitting rock bottom forced him to finally face the truth beneath the muscle. Together, we explore the power of surrender, redemption, and finding meaning in unimaginable loss.Today, Nathan channels that journey into helping others transform their health and mindset through Make Wellness, a company redefining how we approach fitness, peptides, and true well-being.If you’ve ever faced grief, addiction, or identity loss and wondered if healing is even possible, watch this episode. It might just change how you see pain, purpose, and the fight to rise again.Key Moments:0:00 The Phone Call That Shattered My Life5:40 When Reality Finally Hit8:37 Escaping the Pain Through Addiction13:04 Losing Everything and Finding God15:20 How Bodybuilding Became My Survival20:32 The Miracles That Changed My Atheist Heart23:10 The Woman Who Saved Me27:18 Rock Bottom & Bankruptcy32:15 Losing $100K a Month Overnight35:05 The 5 Pillars of Real Health39:04 Why Supplements Don’t Work44:02 The Truth About Ozempic & GLP-1s49:20 Nature’s Alternative to Injectables54:50 How to Join the MovementGuest Info:IG: @‌nathandetracyLinkedIn: Nate DeTracy